Iseesky
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My grandma came over this afternoon and she was telling me about my little cousin who's just turned 3. Apparently, he refuses to use any bathroom that is not in his house. He throws a tantrum and his parents end up having to drive home so he can go to the bathroom. We were talking about why he wouldn't want to use the different bathrooms and she thought that something must have happened to scare him into not wanting to use them.
She brought up something from when I was younger. At a certain age, (I was in grade 1, I believe) I went from being a carefree, social butterfly to a nervous wreck. I was still very sociable and had lots of friends, but I had terrible anxiety and worried about everything. If my parents were to leave and I stayed home with anyone I'd cry and cry until they came back hours later. I was afraid of being in trouble at school. I was afraid of the older kids. I was afraid of basically everything and it seemed to happen all of a sudden. One thing I remember, as silly as it sounds, was my two older 'buddies.' Everyone had one or two older buddies who were in grade 7 at the time that would read/play games with them. I had two girls who were a little strange. They looked normal enough (or what I thought was normal at age 6/7ish), but they were playing weird games with me one day when we were supposed to be reading. One put her hands on either side of my head and said something strange and it creeped me the **** out.
I went home crying and told my mom that I wanted to switch buddies. I did and didn't talk to or see my original buddies again. I think that's what started my anxiety. Before that point I was fine. After that incident (and perhaps others with these girls that I don't remember) I was scared of everything. I don't feel as though they did crazy voodoo or anything, but I definitely think they were able to effect me enough to cause problems. I went to a children's hospital after that to get tests and be talked to (I guess, I don't remember anything from that point) but nothing much was done apart from that.
It just made me think about how largely things that happen when you're little contribute to how you are/act now. So, for those of you who are actually reading this!...Do you have memories from your childhood that have shaped/caused your anxiety or other issues? Share if you feel like...
She brought up something from when I was younger. At a certain age, (I was in grade 1, I believe) I went from being a carefree, social butterfly to a nervous wreck. I was still very sociable and had lots of friends, but I had terrible anxiety and worried about everything. If my parents were to leave and I stayed home with anyone I'd cry and cry until they came back hours later. I was afraid of being in trouble at school. I was afraid of the older kids. I was afraid of basically everything and it seemed to happen all of a sudden. One thing I remember, as silly as it sounds, was my two older 'buddies.' Everyone had one or two older buddies who were in grade 7 at the time that would read/play games with them. I had two girls who were a little strange. They looked normal enough (or what I thought was normal at age 6/7ish), but they were playing weird games with me one day when we were supposed to be reading. One put her hands on either side of my head and said something strange and it creeped me the **** out.
I went home crying and told my mom that I wanted to switch buddies. I did and didn't talk to or see my original buddies again. I think that's what started my anxiety. Before that point I was fine. After that incident (and perhaps others with these girls that I don't remember) I was scared of everything. I don't feel as though they did crazy voodoo or anything, but I definitely think they were able to effect me enough to cause problems. I went to a children's hospital after that to get tests and be talked to (I guess, I don't remember anything from that point) but nothing much was done apart from that.
It just made me think about how largely things that happen when you're little contribute to how you are/act now. So, for those of you who are actually reading this!...Do you have memories from your childhood that have shaped/caused your anxiety or other issues? Share if you feel like...