I offend people without meaning to. This can really be scary, because the anger from others comes with no warning and it is extreme. I make people so angry, they scream and curse. I never know when I will have this effect, and so I am really fearful of it. At 48, I am much more isolated than I have ever been in my life. I know it is n't normal.
ThisI'm scared of rejection, being laughed at or thought of as stupid and confrontation. Confrontation particularly scares me, I only have to read the most mild of confrontational criticisms of myself and my heart pounds, my stomach knots, my face goes red hot and I feel like I'm about to cry...
this andthe idea of disappointing others / guilt
also this...Dealing with other people when I really do not want to and pretending to be happy, when in reality I am a mess emotionally and physically and close to giving up completely. Call it a mask if you will. gaaahhhh.... Also alot of what has been said above the similarities are scary and the majority of you are in a different country!
This
this and
also this...