Birthday hatred
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Sinar_Matahari
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I must say that I'm tempted to allow myself to be miserable and filled with self-loathing on my b-day, but that's horse ****. I feel guilty spending money on myself even if it's on lotions and toiletries, but I like to think of my b-day as a good reason to pamper myself and keep my spirits high.
When I was a little girl, I used to get invited to these big birthday parties and I used to want the same for myself. Naturally, my parents never put so much effort into that sort of thing because that's simply not the way they grew up. The biggest thing I've ever done for my b-day (19th or 20th b-day) I had to make happen because unless you have the kind of friends and family who love to do big things for you, you have to make the big things happen for yourself. I rented a two floor suite, bought alcohol and and invited as many people as I could comfortably fit in said suite. Sadly, I don't remember anything that happened that night.
This year, I'll be happy with good food, a new outfit, (maybe a new hairstyle?) and some drinks with my girls.
When I was a little girl, I used to get invited to these big birthday parties and I used to want the same for myself. Naturally, my parents never put so much effort into that sort of thing because that's simply not the way they grew up. The biggest thing I've ever done for my b-day (19th or 20th b-day) I had to make happen because unless you have the kind of friends and family who love to do big things for you, you have to make the big things happen for yourself. I rented a two floor suite, bought alcohol and and invited as many people as I could comfortably fit in said suite. Sadly, I don't remember anything that happened that night.
This year, I'll be happy with good food, a new outfit, (maybe a new hairstyle?) and some drinks with my girls.
Gray
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My birthday is coming up a week on Friday, but as with all special occasions i'm just "blah" on the whole thing. However admittedly i always think to myself that i should do something special for myself, since i don't (like) relying on other people to make the day special.
It's always relatively minor things, but these minor things always feel like a huge challenge for someone like me. My current thought is that i do actually want to change my hair, getting it slightly coloured a bit and just done "properly".
But with such a change it just makes it feel like people are going to notice. Which is nice, but at the same time its frightening too.
But all i know is, i'm going to be working on my birthday, mainly down to myself. if a big deal gets made of it at work, then so be it. Although unlikely since only a select few actually know about it. Unless Facebook ends up giving it away!
It's always relatively minor things, but these minor things always feel like a huge challenge for someone like me. My current thought is that i do actually want to change my hair, getting it slightly coloured a bit and just done "properly".
But with such a change it just makes it feel like people are going to notice. Which is nice, but at the same time its frightening too.
But all i know is, i'm going to be working on my birthday, mainly down to myself. if a big deal gets made of it at work, then so be it. Although unlikely since only a select few actually know about it. Unless Facebook ends up giving it away!
Surrogate
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As you grow older, you're gonna hate your birthdays even more (or so I've been told).
I don't do much on my birthday except celebrate with family and friends, but usually only at school, and most importantly, myself.
It's not even such a special day after all if you think about it. All it is is telling you that you are a year older, which I don't like too much (I'm obessed with staying in my childhood). It happens every year too, which is really frequent.
I don't do much on my birthday except celebrate with family and friends, but usually only at school, and most importantly, myself.
It's not even such a special day after all if you think about it. All it is is telling you that you are a year older, which I don't like too much (I'm obessed with staying in my childhood). It happens every year too, which is really frequent.
Glimmergirl
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My birthday is coming and I don't find it much to celebrate really. I'm wondering if birthdays are overrated.
Exactly how I feel, worse though, my Birthday this year falls on a Sunday, so basically, I can't just go to work and bury myself in work and forget all about it, I actually have the opportunity to wallow in self pity
Jinba~ittai
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It was yesterday man, I can't believe you didn't show up at the library. We were going to party hard and rock that Dewey Decimal System !
Jinba~ittai
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My Birthday is marked on the work calendar... good grief, wish me luck
Jinba~ittai
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Yeah, and Ethel the Librarian was wearing her fishnet stockings...and nOtHiNg ELSE-later on she took her teeth out and then the real fun started
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arkane
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I'm turning 18 the end of next month and I only have my best friend in mind to invite, that's probably going to be the only person who comes...this is the only birthday I've been excited about in a while because I'm turning old enough to go to clubs, raves, smoke shops etc. but I don't really have friends to do that stuff with...
RolloTomasi
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My 30th birthday is coming up in a few weeks. Ugh. Not happy. Insult to injury; my parents will be out of town, my brother won't be able to get leave to come and my one real friend won't be available. So I get to spend the horrible traumatic day alone.
I figure I'll down a bottle of wine and curl up on the floor and cry or something. Hah.
I figure I'll down a bottle of wine and curl up on the floor and cry or something. Hah.
LonelyWonders
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Ya, I feel the exact same. I hide my birthday because I don't really have any friends. It's easier. Birthdays just remind you of the day you were brought to this rotting hell hole of ignorant jerk-offs. Sadly life is life. Gotta live it.
Damn you life. I'll get you back one day! ::
Damn you life. I'll get you back one day! :
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I really dislike my birthday, but I think it's because I've never had a real one.
Most years everyone forgets it, and I don't like inviting people over because I'm very bad at entertaining people.. but that's never the case, I never have anyone to invite.
I stopped celebrating my birthday when I was 7, I turned 17 this January.
But I always celebrate my un-birthday n___n
Even if it's just me alone.. normally drinking alot of red wine ;D
Most years everyone forgets it, and I don't like inviting people over because I'm very bad at entertaining people.. but that's never the case, I never have anyone to invite.
I stopped celebrating my birthday when I was 7, I turned 17 this January.
But I always celebrate my un-birthday n___n
Even if it's just me alone.. normally drinking alot of red wine ;D