I was talking to this girl I met online for over 2 years now. We were trying to meet and date. But we lived at a good distance but it was never the right moment. Only recently I discovered that nothing she told me was real. She was lying to me the whole time. She's married and have 2 kids plus another one that is coming in a few months. I was expecting something like that since a lot of stuff about her didn't make sense. And yet I wanted to believe. I guess being always alone made me desperate. I just wanted to be with someone...
But tonight I confronted her. And I just lost it. I've never been so mad in my entire life. But also she was being really mean about it. Trying to twist things around like she did nothing wrong. Making it out like making me believe that spending all my free time with her would lead to a possible future together was not a big deal lol. And she just kept leading me on and on that it would happen one day.
I'm still shaking a bit from my talk with her earlier. I talked a bit with my psychologist a while back. And she compared me to a beaten woman. The way I kept coming back for more even thought she was really abusive and manipulative.
I feel so stupid. I knew better but kept going anyway. At least writing my story here helps a bit. I just wish I could forget about it all. I wouldn't be in that state at least
But tonight I confronted her. And I just lost it. I've never been so mad in my entire life. But also she was being really mean about it. Trying to twist things around like she did nothing wrong. Making it out like making me believe that spending all my free time with her would lead to a possible future together was not a big deal lol. And she just kept leading me on and on that it would happen one day.
I'm still shaking a bit from my talk with her earlier. I talked a bit with my psychologist a while back. And she compared me to a beaten woman. The way I kept coming back for more even thought she was really abusive and manipulative.
I feel so stupid. I knew better but kept going anyway. At least writing my story here helps a bit. I just wish I could forget about it all. I wouldn't be in that state at least