Sorry I'm in a bad mood and I'm having trouble keeping my focus, so I might be a little hard to understand. My mom and dad always tell me these feelings go away and I just have to deal with them until they are gone, but I am losing hope. I know this is very annoying to hear but its the simplest way I can put it, I hate who I am and everything about me. I'm losing hope in everything and I keep thinking everythings going to be better. Everything is going to be okay I just need to wait. It isn't ****ing true. I don't know who to be. I won't make it anywhere being me. I want to be someone else and change everything about me. People see me, nerdy and looks like a good student, and assume I'm going to be successful in life. Everyone is living in their own world, its really hard to see things for what they are if you have only experienced yourself. I couldn't focus in class today, I forced myself to do the work and take notes but I had to stay in after class to finish. There HAS TO BE A WAY OUT OF THIS! I WANT REAL FRIENDS I CAN HANG OUT WITH! I don't want to be like everyone else I just want people who can accept me for who I am. I can't talk about what interests me or I bore people to death. People are always ignoring me and not listening. I saw having friends and gaining confidence as a goal, but it's hard to find a way to have all that. :kickingmyself: