I'm terrified of myself! I frequently marvel at my own stupidity!....I mean, I've got this far so I guess I'm doing ok, but sometimes when I really look at how my brain and my emotions work I really don't have as much control as I thought. I have so many irrational beliefs and the hard thing is when the emotions come. When I get a strong dose of emotion urging me in a certain direction, it's amazing how easily manipulated I can be by my feelings.....I'm not as strong as I thought either. Sometimes I feel very much like a frightened little fruit fly twitching and flappy aimlessly through a big scary city totally helpless and defenceless to the abundance of dangers around me, but just blindly hoping that I make it through!