I have been blaming my declining life on eczema for a while, only ever right on my face.
New insight. I don't like citing health as a root for my trouble. I've had a lot, since birth! They come in priority! Actually, second to health, comes my family. I don't like excuses. As I recover with a hardcore inbuilt determination to succeed socially and healthwise, starting with the basic 7-year-old sharpscratch resilience to long-term overuse of my vein access for tests and 'treatment'
After a youth of thin, non-clotting blood and a ban on contact sports, and military practice at school, my thirties age was accompanied by epilepsy, caused by my blood history.
I swept aside my eczema for years, as organ removal and countless months strapped into straightjackets for 'my own safety' - a difficult time when family members would laugh at my eczema. Now it's prominent, while I can ignore all my other problems, but they may well come back.
Still dwelling on sister-in-law criticsm who said 'he'll never have a girlfriend' when I was very little, and later did 'worry' about my face, covered in eczema. Now my brain, my memory, co-ordination is perfect.
There is a wholesome setback with dreaded health, but I'm sure the red nose & cheeks are the simple reason why people turn their backs on me. They can't tolerate such a leper in their prim & proper Hollywood-style offices where nothing in the world matters apart from what your face looks like.
I've had white creams of the calibre of aqueous E45, Daktarin, Oilatum, DIPROBASE, Elocon, and I've compared them all over years. I'd say all of these do exactly the same, making the condition worse, encouraging the flakes and redness to come back, and it's very hard to resist the itchy scratching addiction. Maybe it's all happened because I used shampoo to get rid of dandruff. That's a real slap in the face.
Best treatment I've tried so far is a transparent corticosteriod gel - not creamy - Eumovate, which takes a few hours to absorb into the skin, looking shiny, but gets the skin to a good matte, soft and flakefree result. Seasons never matter. The condition takes a back seat or rears its head when it wants to, in the hot or cold. Maybe it's what gets into my tummy that has the most effect
I think of the undesired appearance equivalent to wearing spectacles, or the tooth grids, or a bald head? Haven't been prone to any of these.
Wondering if the reasons for rejection could be so simple to basic people. If the prerequisites of any actor, sports pro, musician, artist, if you just have to be the best of the very best, scoring top or if skin or any of the above appearance factors apply first
