Because memories of that friendship, or at least its bitter ending, are just as tormenting and poisonous as when it happened less than a year ago.
I need anything, suggestions, methods, ideas that will help me to leave the past in the past and move on.
I'm SICK of constantly facing a bombardment of memory triggers - we used to do everything together, so no matter how many significant items I've disposed of that even remotely relate to her, no matter where I turn, I still see or hear or feel things that put me right back on the emotional thought train to Depressionville. With my friends, who adore her, it's rare not to get bogged down if someone so much as implies her in a conversation.
For F-word's sake, she even regularly pops up in my dreams (nightmares?). So often my first waking thought is an unhappy one. I mean give me a break! Stupid subconscience.
I hope someone can help me out here... I've really just had enough of this anguish, and I want out while the exit (if one exists) is still open for me.