Waybuloo
Well-known member
Today I had an assessment interview with a psychiatric nurse for referral onwards to specialist help. I was not very anxious at the beginning of the interview, I am used to talking about my problems and that was just like a rehearsal for a script I've said many times. But as we started talking I became more anxious and self conscious, especially when she made conversation and became more personable. To her that might be making me more at ease, but I had to be more conversational whilst masking increasing anxiety.
It occurred to me that the more I talk to someone, or the more I get to know someone, the more distant I become, and the more anxiety I experience. I wsa under the impression that in principle, socially anxious people get less anxious the more they talk to someone or do something. It occurred to me that maybe this isn't social anxiety but anxiety of getting close to people. Maybe that is why my 5 tries at CBT did not work out.
Sometimes I am at ease talking to a stranger, but am completely awkward talking to a friend I know for years. Is anyone else like me? Is anyone better the more they get to know people? Regardless, what are your thoughts on it?
It occurred to me that the more I talk to someone, or the more I get to know someone, the more distant I become, and the more anxiety I experience. I wsa under the impression that in principle, socially anxious people get less anxious the more they talk to someone or do something. It occurred to me that maybe this isn't social anxiety but anxiety of getting close to people. Maybe that is why my 5 tries at CBT did not work out.
Sometimes I am at ease talking to a stranger, but am completely awkward talking to a friend I know for years. Is anyone else like me? Is anyone better the more they get to know people? Regardless, what are your thoughts on it?