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Inadequate. Never good enough. I can't seem to do anything without my family offering up nothing but negativity every time I make a decision for myself, even though I never asked their opinion. Don't know why I even bother anymore. I don't even feel I have any control over my life.

That's pretty much my family in a nutshell. Though, for me, it's just frustrating that it's taken over a decade for my mother to properly acknowledge how she's treated me over the years without laughing it off. Honestly? No. I've been able or felt comfortable to. Years of getting treated...

I'm feeling quite emotionally right now. 🥺 I've spent the last 12 years of my life being fucking gas lit and made to feel guilty whenever I spoke up about how I felt. Constantly being made oot tae the bad yin; the one in the wrong. A bully... Turns oot, my feelings and frustrations weren't just...

Cannae quite believe that today marks a year since I last attended a concert. That said, I'm just glad it was this band I fortunate enough to see before the lockdown restrictions came into affect. The night after this show, I saw Dream Theater live for the first time in Glasgow. One of the...

Note to self: Must get this rectify ASAFP. 😠😡🤬 2 months?! And nae twiddling about on the guitar whatsoever for that long? 😦 C'mon Graeme! Get it together, man...

Pissed off. Naw, let me rephrase that: utterly fucking fed-up with the family drama I have to put up with on an almost daily basis. But I'm never allowed to say anything about it. I have to listen to my mother and oldest sibling complain to me every time there's an argument. But, aside from a...

I haven't picked up and played either of my guitars in exactly 2 months... 😳 FUCK !! "Graeme, how d'ye know it's been 2 months?" Ah just checked my SoundCloud profile. 😆

Stressed and pretty damn lonely, true be told. My depression and anxiety are currently getting the better of me.

Me? I've been better... Lately it seems, no matter what I do, I always end up messing up. I'm starting to wonder if a certain member of my family was right in their putdown of me, when they described me as a useless, good-for-nothing waste of space who does sweet feck all.

Yet again, it's only after the fact that my oldest sibling will admit to be wrong. Trying to make me take half the blame for something I'd sold on eBay that end up getting damaged in transit, when she was the one who insisted on packing it for me. And I'm never allowed to say "No" to her cuz...

I feel great... I just got made to feel like shit because I didn't immediately reply to an email my oldest sister sent me this morning. :mad: But, hey, it's fine - it's not as if I have a life, responsibilities, priorities and stuff that needs to be done. By myself, ah might add. Because aside...

Disappointed and let down, but what else is new? No doubt I'll be made out to the "bad one" for getting pissed off over the fact that my oldest sister ended up making me think I could trust and rely upon her, when she just shown me otherwise. Despite this not being first time she's done that to...

Stressed and annoyed, things don't seem to be going well for me at the moment. 😔

I don't know how I'm feeling. Probably depressed, still. Probably? The past 4 years... almost certainly. Frustrated more than anything. Huv'nae really been sleeping much. Staying awake til about 3 o'clock in the morning. There's plenty I should be doing n' getting on with. Plenty to take muh...

In shock at the moment. Just found out that a family friend has died. :cry: 😔

Well, my auntie's funeral went ahead last week, on Thursday. She was my mother's sister. We were sure if we get going, what the lockdown restrictions. And another of my cats died today. So... 😔😢 I'm not doing to well.