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  1. lilmutegirl

    Awkwardness

    I'm coming to terms with my awkwardness, but am not sure that I'll ever be completely comfortable. As a 30-yr-old college senior, I see many younger people who appear (though this could be completely superficial) to know who/what they are and are confident in themselves. I have accepted that I'm...
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    Highs and lows of anxiety

    Lately, I've been almost on auto-pilot because I'm so busy. In a way, it's nice, because I don't stop long enough to get anxious most of the time, I just do what I need to do. Yesterday in a class, we were working in groups. I talked to the other two people in my group just fine. Then, the...
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    Doorbell Dread

    I am about to leave my house, which wouldn't be that big of a deal, except the doorbell rang a bit ago, which sent me into a panic. I didn't answer. Turns out, there are 4 guys re-doing the sidewalk leading to my house. I'm afraid of their reaction when I try to leave, and am worried I may not...
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    Reaction to tragedies

    I tend to picture tragedies after hearing about them. I imagine them in great detail and wonder what the people involved felt and thought. I also obssess about and emotionally react a lot. After hearing about the school shooting in CT, I can't help but picture these poor children being shot and...
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    Being the "serious" one

    I know a lot of people on here say they don't have friends, but if you consider yourself to be part of a group, do you often feel like the "odd man out"? I do. I went to a football game yesterday with 9 other people. I'm pretty close to one of the girls and my bf, and knew the other girls and...
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    It's like a switch was flipped...

    I recently realized that something about me has changed. I am generally less anxious, and I tend to do things that I need to do without thought or fear (like going to class, going to work, dealing with other daily issues that would've caused me anxiety in the past). I don't know exactly what...
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    Do you worry that your SA makes you look suspicious?

    Sometimes I fear that my awkwardness could be interpreted as something suspicious. Recently, I took a midterm in class and I felt like I was moving oddly and was afraid the teacher would think I was cheating. I feel this way in stores sometimes too, afraid that my lack of eye contact will make...
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    How do you feel about people telling you not to worry?

    When I first sought help for my SA, the counselor I was seeing told me to remember that everyone in my classes was not focused on me. Even knowing this, I was uncomfortable in the environment. I was reminded of this tonight, when my boyfriend wanted to come over to my house. It's a mess so I...
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    Feel left out in groups, even online?

    I have always felt like an outsider in groups, even if I am fine one-on-one with each member of the group. What made me start this thread is because I'm in an online class where we have to work in a group. The first assignment was due this past Sunday. I posted something on Thursday, since I...
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    Are you misunderstood?

    When I do talk, I find that I'm often misunderstood. Even when I try to clarify a situation, people still don't get it, which is frustrating to me and them. This is one reason I don't talk much. Anybody else encounter this?
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    What are your priorities/what do you value?

    Within the past year, I've questioned what values my parents tried to pass down to me, and all I've come up with is that they wanted me and my brother to keep up the appearance of having a good life. With my own son, I'm trying to figure out what priorities and values to pass down to my son...
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    Do you obsess about conversations after they're over?

    I do. I tend to re-play things over and over. Most recently, at work, we had a manager from another store in to visit, which wouldn't have been that big of a deal (I felt remarkably comfortable with her there), except that one of our employees said something stupid in front of her (she admitted...
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    Epiphanies

    I had one today, but I forgot it...I remember thinking I would post it on here, but since I was driving when I thought of it, I wasn't able to at that time. I'll post it when I remember. ::p: What epiphanies have you had?
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    Living in the moment

    I think this is one of the hardest things for me to do. Sometimes, it's because whatever is happening is not pleasant (for instance, when I'm taking my test in less than an hour, I'm going to be anxiously anticipating leaving class, and probably not putting much focus on the actual test). Other...
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    What types of anxiety do you have?

    Do you get anxious in situations other than social ones? Just today, the fact that I've lost stuff, am not financially independent, and about to take a test are all making me anxious. The test actually makes me feel somewhat intoxicated. I feel almost like I'm having an out-of-body experience. I...
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    Observations about this forum

    Most of the posts on here are very well articulated, yet I have a feeling that if any of us met, we'd not talk/barely talk/stammer. I know I tend to get tongue-tied, but can write very well when I am motivated to.
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    Different Forms of Communication

    Do you feel differently about different forms of communication? I tend to feel more comfortable texting/emailing/posting things on forums (things that don't require me to actually speak). I'm also okay with chatting online, but pretty much only do that with one friend, whom I've known half my...
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    The cycle of control and chaos

    This may be something that has already been discussed, but I've noticed that I go through a cycle of feeling like things are getting better (not just with my anxiety--mainly my finances, but also, school, social life, health, etc). Pretty much as soon as I start to feel like I'm taking control...
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    How do you feel about people helping you?

    How do you feel when people try to help you? I feel like I'm a loser, especially if the advice or aid is unsolicited. I hate that I'm not able to take care of myself and my son. I have recieved a lot of help from people (mostly financial and advice about what to do with my life). I feel a little...
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    Do you know how to be happy?

    Do you know what would make you happy or less anxious? I am convinced that once I'm done with school and financially independent I'll feel much better. The thing is, I almost don't know how to reconcile this with my current reality. I imagine it, but it always seems like a far-off fantasy, not...
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