Recent content by of_darkness

anyone? it's pretty damn good, a moment ago i triggered the memory of 5 more dreams I hadn't remembered before. I have a little collection of them, now. I'm so sure they're dreams, it wasn't momentary like a deja vu, I can picture them now. just the locations, not events. I can see them very...

does anyone else get that? I'm always looking for a better future, where I find the right people to get along with. Not necessarily others with SP and quiet people, just people I understand. I'm always thinking there are better, perfect people but I just can't find them. There were a few in my...

ok, so I was at this traditional dance thing last week with music and all, really nice and fun. I was with my flat mates, I had dances with one of them, which was just casual and we laughed about it. But later one girl was all clingly and wanted me to dance with her... we were all half pissed...

I'm not coping as well with the change as I thought I would. Haven't started the course yet but my 4 flat mates are all nice and things aren't too bad. But I feel I'm letting myself down continuously. I'm already the quieter one which annoys the hell out of me that I let it happen after just 3...

I've been talking to friends on msn, just typing random inappropriate words put appropriately my me, and they're not reacting much. Making me feel even more insane. Isnt that odd? surely if someone typed loads of shot sentences describing their life and annoyances, you'd be annoyed? or at least...

Fuck where did my late childhood and ...teen hood go....... oops...

It's annoying me now. I definately have two friends who I trust. no doubt about that, they don't deceive me and or make me feel left out. But one of my oldest friends is just being so odd. At his 18th a few weeks ago when I arrived, on my own because I live so near, he basically ignored my...

It's a funny thing. I'm definately not normal as I"m sure you're all taking for granted. But sometimes I just lose it , like when I walked to school yesterday. I actually walked there feeling like it was time for improvement (And I had changed the direction of my hair.......hah. Never done that...

It was good while it lasted. (.....that was a lie) I never officialy left, if anyone remembers me I seemed to be always on about being fortunate and getting better at that life thing but...as it happens I found my way back with you lot. where I belong really. I had an argument with my dad just...

I think I have. I'm 18 now, and things are just working disastrously smoothly. I feel AMAZING deep inside on 100% personal matters. My music taste fascinates me, I've almost given myself some random form of synesthesia just by listening and loving my new tastes too much!! All thanks to...

I like to think I'm improving my social skills. Which I am to an extent, but then again I'm also realising that whilst I can talk to people in such an improved way, I'm disliking so many more people at the same time. Theres an inverse relationship, as I discover more about more people I dislike...

I went to a friend's 18th last night, I was definately worried beforehand for OBVIOUS reasons. But hey, i survived, and made at least 2 very long, succesful conversations! from my side of talking too! one was with a guy i lost out on as a friend years ago,one of those many casualties of my SA...

Does anyone get these as often as I do? I find it kinda col that I've had at least 4 or 5 just this year. I was reading in good old wikipedia just now out of curiosity, and it said that they seem to be very common, with 70% of people reported to have experienced it at least once...i've had wayy...

I've been realising that as my social groups rapidly shrink, whilst retaining my few close friends, are they even doing their part as friends? A while back when things started to get really serious they showed some concern, but never thought about doing anything. The other day me and 2 friends...

I find that i'm doing it more and more, having gone on such a long musical rollercoaster over the past 3 years. It's enjoyable, you can let out a few emotions. Not that it helps with SA... But i was just wandering if there were any people out there doing their own thing, trying to be heard in...