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    "Shush! but ... why are you so quiet?"

    This is an annoying habit my sister seems to have when i'm around her in public, or on the bus where she lives or something. I've noticed that it's usually, it's in a social situation, and when i'm alone with her, it's not as common. A little backstory: she's 3 years younger than me, so. Not...
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    Just rude people?

    I seem to encounter a lot of rude/condescending people recently. Not sure why, but it's usually an encounter where I feel I haven't really done anything to deserve it, such as: one time I was in CVS, and I went up to the counter and asked very politely “do you have egg coloring kits for sale?”...
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    Does being depressed make you crazy?

    I rarely talk about my feelings with anyone in my family. Usually its my sister. However when I was visiting my father this week (he's ill and doesn't know/is too lazy to take proper care of himself so I have to make routine visits - plus he's widowed and no one else is there to do it), he...
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    anhedonia

    One of the worst parts of depression is the inability to enjoy things I once enjoyed. I look back at the things that once made me happy and I don't really enjoy them anymore, or I wonder why i've ever liked them in the first place. I have no will or drive anymore ... it's left me completely...
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    Social Anxiety is ruining my life

    Social Anxiety is ruining my life - YouTube
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    Does anyone's SA make them feel better off dead?

    Mine does. I honestly feel like I shouldn't even be alive.
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    Constantly Alone

    I'm sure i'm not the only person suffering from existential loneliness. My social issues force me to isolate myself... and while I do enjoy quiet alone time sometimes, I hate feeling lonely and isolated. I often times believe i'll always be alone because of these problems.
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    Interaction leaving me obsessing over it.

    This is a situation that has been bothering me for a while. Like most anxiety and OCD sufferers (I believe I have both) my mind tends to not let certain things go. It obsesses over them constantly -- and then I am stuck in the loop of wishing "if only I didn't say ___ or didn't do ___ or wasn't...
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    Non-linear interaction v.s linear interaction

    Non-linear interaction v.s linear interaction This is something that i've been thinking about for a while. I don't know if this is only me, but I find that I am less anxious in linear interactions where I know what the outcome is going to be. For example: Going to a store - Linear I have no...
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    SA documentary.

    I thought this was interesting and thought it would be helpful. Social Anxiety Documentary: Afraid of People - YouTube
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    Why can't I kill myself?

    I don't see why I have to remain alive. I keep hearing these messages that "you're not weak", "that's the easy way out" "you'd hurt your family .." But I honestly don't think I would. My family doesn't even care about me ... they don't notice me. No one does. Everyone ignores me. I am pretty...
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    Non understanding, controlling sister

    Sister making SA worse... advice needed. I want to talk about something that I haven't really confronted my sister with yet. An intro about me/her: My sister is three years younger than me. I've talked to her about some ways that I feel about myself, and although she's not a bad person, at...
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    Hello

    Hi, i'm new (obviously). I joined in hopes that i'd feel less lonely in a forum where like minded people. I try really hard to understand people. Because I know exactly what it feels like to not be understood.
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