Thanks, unfortunately I'm much more of a pessimist, a negative person, that's why I dont't have friends, just some buddies, I wouldn't say that I would back off from social situations when I'm already in them, I don't mind talking to people, this might be weird, but sometimes I just cannot believe that I'm actually interacting with someone, thus I forget what he/she is saying.
Overall I got a fear that people would think that I'm just a dull person and realize that I'm a late bloomer.
What do you think? You a bit similiar to me?