I really relate to a lot of your posts! We're in very similar situations. First, let me say, Congratulations on the job! That is huge! I know you must be totally stressing out over it (I would be too). But, this is the first step in moving forward. If you have to borrow money (ugh!), do it. You just have to push a little further, you're almost there. Just gotta get the first paycheck. My unemployment is running out, I am going to need to find a job soon too.