SilentAndShy
Well-known member
I've just started married life properly for about 3 weeks and I'm wishing I had my old life back.
My wife's looking to me to go out, be sociable and show her the sights of the area but I'm hesitant to do so. Part of this is the fact that for four years I've become anxious and to the point I don't do anything, even on my days off, prefer to stay at home. All my life this has meant I don't know anything about tasks that are so easy for people, such as getting the shopping in or ordering meats. Plus my driving anxiety means I don't have a car, unlikely to get one or know how to get one and so I don't have the ability to ask for things, namely a lift.
Now, I think well work should help distract me but I get anxious there as well! But it's better than being at home. Plus, in my life when I wasn't married, I had these fixations with pretty girls I'd see in and around work and even being married, find it hard to not want to see them.
Bottom line is I'm longing for my old life. My wife doesn't know the ins and outs of my anxiety, my fears although I mentioned to her in an email about suffering from anxiety/depression since 2011.
I just wish I was on my own and I don't have confidence I can fulfill the expectations of marriage.
My wife's looking to me to go out, be sociable and show her the sights of the area but I'm hesitant to do so. Part of this is the fact that for four years I've become anxious and to the point I don't do anything, even on my days off, prefer to stay at home. All my life this has meant I don't know anything about tasks that are so easy for people, such as getting the shopping in or ordering meats. Plus my driving anxiety means I don't have a car, unlikely to get one or know how to get one and so I don't have the ability to ask for things, namely a lift.
Now, I think well work should help distract me but I get anxious there as well! But it's better than being at home. Plus, in my life when I wasn't married, I had these fixations with pretty girls I'd see in and around work and even being married, find it hard to not want to see them.
Bottom line is I'm longing for my old life. My wife doesn't know the ins and outs of my anxiety, my fears although I mentioned to her in an email about suffering from anxiety/depression since 2011.
I just wish I was on my own and I don't have confidence I can fulfill the expectations of marriage.