Why am I like this?!?

[kerunia]

I was invited to go to the movies by my longtime friends. As much as I want to go , I just cant because there is going to be lots of people I don't know on top of that they're all guys. I just cant force myself to go. Its embarrassing , Its depressing, Its so annoying , I want to be normal!!! The more I tell myself I should go and that everything is going to be alright the more sick I feel in the stomach. Its discouraging , how am I going to get out of this if I cant even meet people.
The funny part is that I'm actually kind of claustrophobic on top of social phobia so the 1.5 hour movie will be more scary than the extra 15-30min of small talk before the movie or after. I know If I go I wont enjoy the movie because all I will have is panic-attack one after another every 5 min. Im sick of this and my excuse for not going...well Im babysitting my brother( not true).Its been my excuse last time and the time before. My friend probably doesn't believe me anymore and she probably wont want to see me ever again!!!
I HATE this . I HATE My life!!

Sorry about the rant. This is my first thread, & by the way, I'm Karen and Ive been suffering from social phobia, panic attacks and a bunch of other disorders for 5 years and quit school because of that. At least I have a part-time job ( which I was reffered to by the same friend , otherwise I wouldnt be able to pass the interview.) which keeps me from killing myself.
Does anybody here suffers from more disorders than just social phobia? Share please! And sorry for my english. My first language is russian.

 

[kerunia]

Oh and Im not sure why this is in txts, poems and dreams. This is definatly not a poem...lol. Anyways if someone can tell me how to move this to an appropriate sub-forum Ill be very thankful!

 

[Beatrice]

I do. I suffer from general anxiety, depression, a little ADD, and probably a little OCD as well as some BDD traits. I guess I'm super neurotic, but eh, what can I do..... :/

 

[Sial Axetder]

First, keep forcing.
Second, keep forcing even if you end not anything done.
Third, Keep forcing. One of these times you will get it done.
Fourth, claustrophobia is not so uncommon. Let them know about that? Could be a great conversation starter.
Fifth, be you.

 

[agoraphobickatie]

sial is right.. claustrophobia isn't uncommon at all, no one would judge you for that.. i also suffer from many different things, and i feel like my disorders keep growing in number every day, ha! ..i don't really have social phobia, but i have intense anxiety, panic attacks, depression, agoraphobia (i feel sick every time i have to leave the house), and i can really relate when you say it just makes you feel sick to your stomach... it is SO hard to fight through that and actually DO what you're afraid of, because you really DO FEEL sick, ya know? that's how i am every day... one thing you could do is tell your friend that you do have some social anxiety.. i told all of my friends and i'm really open about my anxiety/agoraphobia and they've always been supportive and do whatever they can to help and make me feel comfortable... it doesn't always hurt to talk to someone and tell them what's really going on with you, if nothing else, you'll feel much better getting the secret out instead of keeping all that in..
best wishes to you

 

[bitingthepea]

hey dont worry your not alone. Im the same. it is depressing , and it makes you wonder what it would have been like if you had actually gone out. Im hoping one day ill be able to talk in a group of more than 2 people.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

What Sial and Katie said. Esp with longtime friends. I opened to my old HS buddies recently... well, not all, but the closest 2. They were very understanding; that's a mark of true friendship if you're worried about what they'll think or judge you.

BUT - with other "friends" and colleagues from school; unless I know someone Im comfortable around I just do the same; its hard. But DOING it; forcing, eventually yeah. Wont be as bad as you think =)

I have some OCD and AvPD.

 

[A friend]

I was invited to go to the movies by my longtime friends. As much as I want to go , I just cant because there is going to be lots of people I don't know on top of that they're all guys. I just cant force myself to go. Its embarrassing , Its depressing, Its so annoying , I want to be normal!!! The more I tell myself I should go and that everything is going to be alright the more sick I feel in the stomach. Its discouraging , how am I going to get out of this if I cant even meet people.
The funny part is that I'm actually kind of claustrophobic on top of social phobia so the 1.5 hour movie will be more scary than the extra 15-30min of small talk before the movie or after. I know If I go I wont enjoy the movie because all I will have is panic-attack one after another every 5 min. Im sick of this and my excuse for not going...well Im babysitting my brother( not true).Its been my excuse last time and the time before. My friend probably doesn't believe me anymore and she probably wont want to see me ever again!!!
I HATE this . I HATE My life!!

Sorry about the rant. This is my first thread, & by the way, I'm Karen and Ive been suffering from social phobia, panic attacks and a bunch of other disorders for 5 years and quit school because of that. At least I have a part-time job ( which I was reffered to by the same friend , otherwise I wouldnt be able to pass the interview.) which keeps me from killing myself.
Does anybody here suffers from more disorders than just social phobia? Share please! And sorry for my english. My first language is russian.

One of the best things you can do is be nice, because you weren't being too nice when you sent me those messages, that can create significant damage to your social life.

 

[kerunia]

Thanks for everyone who replied. And A Friend in need: ill try my best