triplethreat
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I can never really explain this right, but I'll give it a shot.
I can't stand the thought of my hands being dry. I really, really can't. It has gotten to the point where I carry a small bottle of lotion wherever I go, as well has having an obscene number of lotion bottles in my room. (Even though I'll a girl, it still looks bad.)
I LOVE Algebra, okay, but one day in Algebra II, we were taking a test, and I'd left my lotion bottle at home. The teacher didn't have any; my hands suddenly felt dry as the Sahara, and I couldn't stand to touch anything but the desk (smooth plastic). Not my jeans, my face, my hair, my pencil, my paper. I just couldn't do it. After panicking for a minute, I ended just sitting there for a few more minutes with my hands clenched in a fist. Soon, my hands began to sweat, and I felt better enough to continue on with the test.
Even when my hands aren't dry, watching somebody, doing it myself, or the thought of rubbing my hands on things like jeans, chalkboard, carpet, dry wall, dry hair... it literally gives me goosebumps, and not the good kind. Just writing this right now, I have gotten chills three times.
...and I just put lotion on.
This all applies to my feet too. I have to wear socks to bed, because I can't have my feet bare against the sheets.
And it's all so terrible because, for some reason, a lot of people have the habit of running their hands over their thighs incessantly, and after a minute I am ready to punch them or cry or leave. All I can do is close my eyes but even the sound, if there is one, will get to me.
I tried to explain this all to my friends one day, but all they got out of it was, "If you rub your hands on your jeans, Kim gets huffy", and then, as preteens will, they teased me with it and did it all the time in front of me. It was horrible.
Can anyone relate? I googled it, and I found one person who was similar, so I know if there's one, there has to be more.
eta: I also have two other OCDs, with actual names: Trich, only on my eyelashes, and Dermatillomania on my lips.
I can't stand the thought of my hands being dry. I really, really can't. It has gotten to the point where I carry a small bottle of lotion wherever I go, as well has having an obscene number of lotion bottles in my room. (Even though I'll a girl, it still looks bad.)
I LOVE Algebra, okay, but one day in Algebra II, we were taking a test, and I'd left my lotion bottle at home. The teacher didn't have any; my hands suddenly felt dry as the Sahara, and I couldn't stand to touch anything but the desk (smooth plastic). Not my jeans, my face, my hair, my pencil, my paper. I just couldn't do it. After panicking for a minute, I ended just sitting there for a few more minutes with my hands clenched in a fist. Soon, my hands began to sweat, and I felt better enough to continue on with the test.
Even when my hands aren't dry, watching somebody, doing it myself, or the thought of rubbing my hands on things like jeans, chalkboard, carpet, dry wall, dry hair... it literally gives me goosebumps, and not the good kind. Just writing this right now, I have gotten chills three times.
...and I just put lotion on.
This all applies to my feet too. I have to wear socks to bed, because I can't have my feet bare against the sheets.
And it's all so terrible because, for some reason, a lot of people have the habit of running their hands over their thighs incessantly, and after a minute I am ready to punch them or cry or leave. All I can do is close my eyes but even the sound, if there is one, will get to me.
I tried to explain this all to my friends one day, but all they got out of it was, "If you rub your hands on your jeans, Kim gets huffy", and then, as preteens will, they teased me with it and did it all the time in front of me. It was horrible.
Can anyone relate? I googled it, and I found one person who was similar, so I know if there's one, there has to be more.
eta: I also have two other OCDs, with actual names: Trich, only on my eyelashes, and Dermatillomania on my lips.