Ello :)

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SadRaver

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Yay, finally, the administrators approved my membership of this site. I've literally spent the last few hours reading through the forums. It feels great to read stories of people who feel the exact same way I do. Praise be the Internet! It's a place where we can express our true thoughts and feelings that would be mighty embarrassing to admit to in real life. For me, anyway. I've been feeling so sad and depressed, constantly, it seems. I feel lonely but I don't want to put myself around people, because I think I'll bring them down or I'll be exposed for what a downer I am, and that'll just make me feel worse.

I don't hate people, I actually love most people. I observe them and admire their humor, the caring and enthusiasm they treat each other with. People are beautiful on the inside and out. I just don't feel like I'm ONE of them. I envy them and wish I operated the way they do. Sigh.

Nice cheery introduction eh? I'm sorry. I'm just very tired of faking it around people and then obsessing about my inadequacies whenever I get the chance, with no real outlet.

So, some specs: I'm 23, live with my boyfriend of 4 months, I'm "between jobs," and I love you just for reading this! >.<
 
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SadRaver

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TryAgain said:
Welcome!


I think we (generally speaking) have greater social skills than we think, it’s just, we are too constrained by our fear of judgment and self consciousness to manifest them properly.
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I think you're right. I mean, I know I'm not "retarded," (pardon my political incorrectness), but when I'm in a situation where I have to be social, it's like there's a mental block and I literally can't think of anything to say! It's just wind blowing and crickets up there o.0

It's pretty funny if you look at it with a sense of humor, but the repercussions on my life and happiness are pretty serious to me :/
 
Shyangel

Shyangel

Well-known member
I love your name. Do you go to raves? ^.^ Raves are awesome.

I can relate alot with what you said, so don't feel alone. I'm also without a job and I am 23. I can't socialize for the life of me, but I love and envy people. I hope we can be friends. ^.^
 
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Zak

Active member
Hello! and welcome to the forums!!!

Ya same question as above... lol do you enjoy electronic dance music?
 
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SadRaver

Member
Zak said:
Hello! and welcome to the forums!!!

Ya same question as above... lol do you enjoy electronic dance music?
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Yes I LOVE EDM. My favorite artists right now are Afrojack and Bassnectar.

Shyangel said:
I love your name. Do you go to raves? ^.^ Raves are awesome.

I can relate alot with what you said, so don't feel alone. I'm also without a job and I am 23. I can't socialize for the life of me, but I love and envy people. I hope we can be friends. ^.^
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Yes I go to raves, I love dancing and listening to the music, and just people-watching. It's interacting with those people that I'm afraid of >.<
 
Tulicks

Tulicks

Well-known member
SadRaver said:
Yay, finally, the administrators approved my membership of this site. I've literally spent the last few hours reading through the forums. It feels great to read stories of people who feel the exact same way I do. Praise be the Internet! It's a place where we can express our true thoughts and feelings that would be mighty embarrassing to admit to in real life. For me, anyway. I've been feeling so sad and depressed, constantly, it seems. I feel lonely but I don't want to put myself around people, because I think I'll bring them down or I'll be exposed for what a downer I am, and that'll just make me feel worse.

I don't hate people, I actually love most people. I observe them and admire their humor, the caring and enthusiasm they treat each other with. People are beautiful on the inside and out. I just don't feel like I'm ONE of them. I envy them and wish I operated the way they do. Sigh.

Nice cheery introduction eh? I'm sorry. I'm just very tired of faking it around people and then obsessing about my inadequacies whenever I get the chance, with no real outlet.

So, some specs: I'm 23, live with my boyfriend of 4 months, I'm "between jobs," and I love you just for reading this! >.<
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Very nice introduction! Yea I basically feel the same way... the way people operate and function in the real world, it just baffles me. It's not that I'm visibly disabled, but I feel detached/disconnected from an internal perspective, which makes it difficult for me to open up and just be myself in the real world. I hope you find some amazing answers to some of your own personal questions on here, and I hope you find your place at home here, it's a great site.
 
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