Another Friday Night...

Another Friday night where all my roommates are out partying/enjoying themselves while I'm sitting in the dark in my room watching comedy stand-up. Anyone else feeling particularly alone tonight?

I'm used to it, but i really need to unwind in the quiet of my cell

Totally

Though my sister and her boyfriend were kind enough to invite me out to dinner at least. Feels awful always being the third wheel, but at least it's something. So it wasn't as lonely as most nights. But now they're gone so I've got the place to myself again.

I'll entertain myself with episode after episode of King of Queens.

Ah man, late night binging of a show is awesome. I did that least week with My Name is Earl. And I totally get by what you mean by being the third wheel, it is terrible. I used to get together with my last really good friend but then he started sticking around with his girlfriend like glue; so after a couple of awkward get-togethers, I just called it quits. But King of Queens is awesome I watched a couple episodes earlier today.

I guess I feel bad about it since I'm not used to it (yet). I'm in my third year of college, so it was living at home before college, and then same room roommates for two years (so I was pretty much forced to be at least friendly). Then, over the summer, I experienced how I could have been if certain certain circumstances could have been different. So I at least miss having some human connection, something to do on a Friday night, but it's like I also miss a life I could have had. But like I insinuated, I'll get used to my situation sooner or later

It's so weird that it is still friday night for some people. I just came back from eating lunch. Spent my friday night in my room doing nothing, just like most other people on this forum I guess...

Yeah dub, I just distract myself now with movies and TV when I'm not studying, but I know it's not a permanent solution, since it really is not something I'd like to always experience. It's like I know I can get used to it, but I don't want to. Eh, I don't know, at this point I'm just rambling.

Oh Oh Oh

Man, I thought it was thursday. Not that it makes a difference, but I was actually a lot closer to what day it actually was this time! Who cares which day is which, and what other people are doing on one specific day of the week? If every day is exactly the same you'll get used to it and eventually forget what day it is . Oops maybe that's a bad thing...

After thinking about it a bit dub , yeah, you're definitely right. The problem is the ongoing trend. I'll just try to re-build some bridges I may have burned with those around me, heh. And at a minimum, I'll start going out myself, it sounds like a healthy thing to do. Thank you


Lol, yeah that's probably not the best route psyche.


Edit: How would I delete this post? I just realized I could have added this on as an edit in my previous post.

Edit 2: Thanks for the info Emily ^_^

I never do anything on Friday nights, I don't mind. I used to mind when I was a freshman in college, away from my family and hubby (bf at the time). I got sooo lonely

DanFC, you can delete it if you click "edit".

Friday Nights are usually the worst times for me. I have coded something in my brain which says "Alone at friday night?- Loooser!". Usually after friday i don't have got such a big depression, but friday is pretty bad. I will never get used to it. Never.

I spent most of last night alone, too. Luckily I have a few close friends just as mellow and chill as I am that I can thrust myself at. =D If it's any consolation, though, in regards to the obnoxious partying neighbors (an issue I find myself having currently - I'm also a junior in college), they are, and I swear this is the truth, no more and no less messed up than anyone else. I mean seriously, if you had the opportunity, would you want to spend your own time in the same way? There are certain god-awful factors that drive people to seek loud, noisy, raucous, obnoxious situations like your average college party, including (but not limited to):
-daddy issues
-superficiality
-a need for attention
-fear of being thought less of
-need to self-medicate
-need to escape from stress
-(my favorite) need to over-stimulate their own senses so that they can forget how alone they really are

Loneliness is, after all, the human condition; no one escapes from it, they only ever pretend. Not that there aren't key moments when you feel closer and more connected to somebody than you ever have in your life... but not only is that rare, but furthermore it takes a lot more than your average "I'm an air-headed git who uses alcohol and loud music to cope with my own over-blown issues"-type person could ever have. I think in a weird sort of way, feeling like we do now probably at least gives us an opportunity to understand what a true interpersonal connection is, on a much deeper level than that. Usually knowing that isn't nearly enough. =P But sometimes it is; the thought that someday, if not now, I'll be better for it. Especially nice if you believe in the immortality of the soul, because then you can use this experience you accrue, in the next life, if you fail to in this one.

Finally, I'm being presumptuous here, but I think that probably you, like myself as well as most everyone else here, really don't give yourself enough credit for how much you have progressed. Obviously I don't know what you were like before and what you're like now, but life certainly was a lot easier back home... *sigh* And just by going through it you constantly learn new things, even when you feel like you've regressed or gotten worse. It's strange, I have no proof of it, but it's true. =)

P.S. Far as shows to binge on go: either Pushing Daisies, or Star Trek: The Next Generation =D

i wont answer this fri night thread cos its sat afternoon now lol

It's Saturday for me also. But think you should try going out but forget Friday. Friday sucks. No, I say do it on a Tuesday! If you ask a person out, take them to the gig on Tuesday! That will say you are unique and traffic isn't as bad or busy then either.
And when Friday does come, take the person up to your dorm and watch tv.

Sounds crazy, hey? Crazy enough to work? May be.

I watched 2 movies on my computer friday night (Big Fish and 500 Days Of Summer) and then lurked around SPW until 3 am

feels good man >.>