durda_dan
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what was your first intrusive thought, how was your reaction
I never knew i had OCD. one day i was cuddling with my girlfriend and i had a thought to break her neck
I was so scared. i thought i was going to puke. i couldn't sleep, i felt nausious, the next day i went to work in the morning and when i cam back from work when i could see my apartment i was afraid to go inside, what would i do when i go inside. i was terrified.
but over the course of the next few months, i couldn't shake off that thought, and then it turned to break necks everywhere. No matter where who i saw. then push people into traffic or off my balcony.
i cried a lot. I thought i was a bad person i thought i was going to kill someone. and mostly i thought how my family would react. how they would be broken if i go to jail.
It didn't help
since i was so scared my OCD fed off that and got worse!
but eventually my anxiety calmed down, and i learned to cope with it. i still get anxiety only if it is a strong thought. Usually it's ok.
i thoguht this has to be anxiety because my parents came to visit me for the first time in a while, i got a new job, and a new house and a lot of changes.
I looked up anxiety and i thought thats what i had because of the anxiety attack after the thought.
i kept looking up anxiety and then i got some depression so i looked that up too,
One of my friends is a doctor and he told me to check out a website , only for doctor website, no regular people should look at this, but he gave me his password and such, i looked at it. and the thing i noticed was it was more like OCD then anxiety. and then i read more on OCD and am convinced this is what i have now.
thats my story, whats yours
I never knew i had OCD. one day i was cuddling with my girlfriend and i had a thought to break her neck
I was so scared. i thought i was going to puke. i couldn't sleep, i felt nausious, the next day i went to work in the morning and when i cam back from work when i could see my apartment i was afraid to go inside, what would i do when i go inside. i was terrified.
but over the course of the next few months, i couldn't shake off that thought, and then it turned to break necks everywhere. No matter where who i saw. then push people into traffic or off my balcony.
i cried a lot. I thought i was a bad person i thought i was going to kill someone. and mostly i thought how my family would react. how they would be broken if i go to jail.
It didn't help
since i was so scared my OCD fed off that and got worse!
but eventually my anxiety calmed down, and i learned to cope with it. i still get anxiety only if it is a strong thought. Usually it's ok.
i thoguht this has to be anxiety because my parents came to visit me for the first time in a while, i got a new job, and a new house and a lot of changes.
I looked up anxiety and i thought thats what i had because of the anxiety attack after the thought.
i kept looking up anxiety and then i got some depression so i looked that up too,
One of my friends is a doctor and he told me to check out a website , only for doctor website, no regular people should look at this, but he gave me his password and such, i looked at it. and the thing i noticed was it was more like OCD then anxiety. and then i read more on OCD and am convinced this is what i have now.
thats my story, whats yours