keeping friends is harder for me. If i am an aqquaintance i feel there is no pressure on me, but with friendships i fear them getting to know me too well. I am incredibly lazy in making an effort for example talking on the phone/sending messages etc, but most of all i need to be alone all the time. Another reason is i have terribly low self esteem and wonder why anyone would want to bewith me so i avoid people. I have lost many peopke due to this avoidance.