I started cutting at age 13. I cut when I feel in pain, ashamed, and hurt. I don't do it much, I just wait till my scars heal, then cut again. The only people who knows my addiction is my mom, dad, grandma, and grandma's maid. Last time I told my mom that I stopped but she doesn't know I'm still doing it. The maid thinks that my addiction is a joke. My grandma knows but she is very religious. The more people hurt me, the more I cut.
When people think cutting is a joke
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I don't want to, she might send me to a mental hospital.
vj288
not actually Fiona Apple
Once in high school, I had a bandage on my arm from a cut that I made in the spring. I had a track meet so I had to go bare armed, and some people asked me what it was from. Me, not wanting to keep it to myself, said it my dog scratched me. After I said that someone asked, jokingly, "You haven't gone emo on us vj, cutting yourself, have you? haha" A few others jumped in too. I just said no, laughed it off, pretending it was all a big joke. I wasn't exactly your stereotypical cutter, so no ever suspected a thing.
Not to say people didn't know, they must have. I worked in a kitchen as a dishwasher, and was required to wear a t-shirt, so I would have 4 or 5 bright red marks on my arm that were clear for people to see at any given day during the during the winter of my senior year of high school. No one ever said a word, it seemed to be a very taboo subject.
People don't really understand it, as phocas said. Talking to someone about what is bothering you - if you can - may not be a bad idea. You don't have to tell them how you are coping with it, but maybe they can help you find ways to address what is causing you to do it. Feel free to talk to me if you want.
Not to say people didn't know, they must have. I worked in a kitchen as a dishwasher, and was required to wear a t-shirt, so I would have 4 or 5 bright red marks on my arm that were clear for people to see at any given day during the during the winter of my senior year of high school. No one ever said a word, it seemed to be a very taboo subject.
People don't really understand it, as phocas said. Talking to someone about what is bothering you - if you can - may not be a bad idea. You don't have to tell them how you are coping with it, but maybe they can help you find ways to address what is causing you to do it. Feel free to talk to me if you want.
I would make an excuse when someone saw my scars. I said I got scratched by a cat.
Thank you but Philippines is different. If I told them about my cutting, I would maybe get me in a straitjacket and sent me to a mental hospital.
awkwardamanda
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Is there some sort of a confidential help line you could call? They might be able to tell you where to go from here and you wouldn't have to worry about being sent to a mental hospital.
this_portrait
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Ah, the whole 'emo' phase. I remember when that first emerged. In fact I remember a large portion of those kids didn't even cut themselves; they only claimed to. Plus it seemed more about fashion and a certain type of music, which I find pretty sad. How can you take something serious like self-harm and make a fashion statement out of it?
To the OP, I read that you're from the Philippines, so I thought I'd look to see if there's a type of mental health group in your country, and I came across this: Philippine Mental Health Association. You could contact them anonymously and see if they can help or refer you to someone who can.
Hope that helps.
