I remember my first wank....in the bath, when I was about 13...I remember feeling totally fascinated and awestruck....even slightly scared at this incredible new world that had just opened up to me!!! I also remember feeling very guilty afterwards and was convinced that it was written across my forehead and all my family knew what I had just done.
up until about 20, I probably wanked about 2-3 times a week on average, but the last 5 years I've probably only wanked 2-3 times a year on average....[well maybe a touch more]....but I decided to quit because it felt wrong to me. It felt very much like an addiction. The fact that I found it so hard to quit was an indicator to me that it had too much power and control over me. I like to be the master of my own body.
I like to be the master of my own mind too and I don't like looking at women lustfully....actually thats a lie....I LOVE looking at women lustfully!!!!....but I choose to fight against it, because it also feels wrong to me. It's hard to explain my reasons in detail, or try to convince others of my viewpoint....of course I could be wrong.....but it just all FEELS wrong to me....So I choose not to do it....I'm happier overall this way.