What is going on:(

[Falkor]

Hi, I need to share something important...

Sometimes I have moments when I suddenly get being attacked by emotions.
Literally speaking, I feel anything from the outside, I feel suddenly a load of all those emotions of people, anyone, outside, people I do not know and I do.
Even if people are in my presence, I know exactly how they feel and I know if it's a good or bad person, and what that person likes and what not.
And what person, what kind of character, whether he or she has sorrow, etc. .. I really do not know why, and I can not talk about it.
People also tell me, I know exactly what they feel, if I give someone a massage for example I know what they like XD and I know how to give someone support, by caring and understanding cuz i know how they feel exactly.
I do not know where it comes from, and I am ashamed for really terrible. "
I can not even tell my parents, I am afraid they'll think I'm crazy.
And this topic is also very difficult to write.
I just feel that I was in the top seat of emotions again, I feel tremendous load of grief, joy (immense joy), anger, uncertainty, everything all together.
It's like I feel the top of everything, and I just can not talk to anyone.
I would just love to explain how I feel, it's just annoying that I have these moments of discharge.
because it is so difficult to explain to people how much is going on.
I feel at times like a huge joy, of gratitude, while I feel a lot of anger and fear and grief prevail.
Those moments when I suddenly I only experience very strong feelings, I just feel how other people feel, people I do not know and people I know do.
And I feel like everyone will declare me being crazy but I feel everything is so intense that I sometimes do not outcomes.
If I like it, it's really very beautiful and if I do mind, I feel the pain of others, and not that I mind, but quite literally the other's pain.
I wish I could close all of those things, but I'm ashamed so much that I feel so socially anxious.
I feel embarrassed if someone sees my emotions such as joy, because I feel so strongly that it may seem strange, like I'm weird, I get attacked by fear when I feel so much emotions.
I myself would not call it an emotional person because rationally I'm not, but I just feel everything, such a film can move me deeply and it all overwhelmed me, music can break me, and make me feel heavy things, only music can touch me, and moving me away, I don't know what's happening to me.
I do not want to show it and that is terribly difficult, eg I'm ashamed when I really happy to be somewhere, I don't want anyone to see it, I wanna hide my emotions, I just wish I could tell everyone how I feel, and explain why I'm such a rollercoaster, I feel so much. I even feel and predict, I sense emotions of animals and can see aura's, I know if i would tell my parents or friends they would call me insane, i'm soooo afraid of judgement, and I wish I could show everyone what it is.
I can not express ... Precisely because so much is bringing me, everyday.
And while I think I'm an Empath, I think this explains everything ....

Anyways thanks for reading people.. Sassy

 

[SLikeSascha]

I can relate to your situation as I feel the same way a lot of times.
When I'm around people, their emotions really affect me tremendously.
I can feel extremely happy but when I'm around someone who's sad, I pretty much instantly feel sad, too.
I'm not sure where it comes from but I'm not really trying to fight it as I actually feel it brings me closer to people.

 

[Lea]

Wow that's interesting, and you can see auras? Can you see them always, or only sometimes, and what color are they? Do different people have different colors and can you recognize on color what are they like?

 

[SLikeSascha]

Are you a synesthete, too?

 

[Aussie_Lad]

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[SeniorRedrings]

You are an empath.

This sound like you are going through a spiritual blossoming,an acceptance of new realities.Sure it is scary without a guide rail to cling on to but i don't think life wants you to surrender yourself to a mundane and orthodox reality mode.

If you were crazy then your interpretations of others emotional states would not be so accurate or confirmed by the person themself.
They are spot on.You are not wrong.
Your mind may be worried as if it has to defend against the intrusion of these alien emotions.Your mind may be trying to imitate your bodies response to unfamiliarity by mimicking an autoimmune defense response,because remember,these are not your first hand feelings.They are coming in from the outside.
Please tell your mind to treat those alien feelings in the same way it is able to process these alien words.
In time you will develop the ability to choose or filter which kinds of emotions you want to let in.At the moment however you must sample all aspects of the human emotional matrix,i know it is scary and i know you feel so raw but without going through this recognition and classification phase you would be stalled a the point of fearful ignorance.

Just as you felt frightened when your body started to change due to the onset of puberty,you are now feeling frightened because your mind is now also going through it's own form of puberty.This advanced cerebral maturing does not happen to everyone,that is why you are finding it so difficult in finding a cultural or social sign post to guide you through this new phase of enlightenment.
You are the agent for change in your own life,for whatever reason this seems to be the way things are meant to be at this moment in time.

You are not alone though,yes it may take some years of your life to find others who are just like you.Until then you must realise that this is the way nature intended you to be and you must work towards gaining mastery over the conventional fears that threaten to temporarily distort the true wonder that is your exceptional powers of sensitivity.

Your mind is now a hotel.You must prepare some rooms for your guests.For in the future there will be many.And whether you to choose to invite them to stay,or ask them to leave,for while they are in your house of hospitality,every aspect of their being will be automatically controlled by the friendly influence,or the fierce command that they must be willing to submit to in order to sample the delights and amenities provided by your super sense.
You are in control.
Welcome to the hotel business.

 

[pakistan]

in apprentice season 11, some episode, they split the money for charity, i cried.

 

[kilojoule]

Interesting.

I think that you are aware of your surroundings and quite alert by the sounds of it. I'm a cynical sort of person when it comes to the spiritual though. I prefer to think of it as a sensitivity. I mean I think each of us experiences a number of emotions at any given time. In the last 2 minutes I've experienced fear and anxiety because I forgot to take my meds earlier today and worry because last check I had swelling around my throat (I'm an anaphylactic) joy and laughter because I remembered something very funny that happened earlier, annoyance with myself for forgetting to take meds, frustration because I have to take them, despair because its not fair a little forgetfulness can be so costly to me, regret because I didn't take a call from a friend and relief because I checked in the mirror in between writing this and swelling is in fact going down and then a feeling of accomplishment because I got it under control all by myself. Now that is just 2 minutes. But I am very aware of how I feel at different times and i think that's because of the nature of suffering from anxiety or agoraphobia or S.A. or any linked conditions. We analyze everything over and over, we watch everything (whether we know we do it or not) so we know our own emotions and feelings and we recognize them in others. Also music and films are designed to manipulate our emotions. A good book, or a good film or a good song is good because it drown us in the depths or send us into an ecstatic state. I don't think any of us can really feel exactly how someone else feels. I do believe in empathy to a point to say that some people are empathetic. These people are both self aware and selfless because they look outside themselves. They are not the kind of people to be me me me but are caring and genuine and they are very aware of others. It's a lovely way to be.

 

[Apersonalan]

I don't think if you told anyone about what you go through that they would think your crazy I think empaths have a gift. I think your ability to feel others and feel others pain and wanting to please people comes at the expense of not doing or feeling anything for yourself. To care so much and not get anything back you should trade in being blue and make things more about yourself sometimes.