weird OCD love thing

[Falkor]

When I am around a person,

for e.g when i was little, ,i had a fear that my aunt would think im in love with her and the whole family would notice it (while i never loved her AT ALL, only as a big part of my life, friend wise), but then i got nervous everytime she was there, and blushed... while I NEVER EVER EWWW LIKED HER. I just got that behaviour around here, and i was avoiding her big time. Because I was so clumsy and sweaty that everyone would notice.

So then,, the nexxt thing happened, i got it at my friend's place, her brother, he liked me, but i did not like him, but then everytime i saw him, i got all sweat and i blushed and i was giggling and so awkward, so everybody could notice, and when he came close it was like my whole body was trembling, while I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO MALES, it was just the PARANOIA of his family thinking i'm in love with him, while i wouldn't even want to kiss him or anything..BLUUH

So then the next thing happened, i got it with my teacher, everytime he got close, and when he used words, ''Can I speak to you when everybody's gone'' Or something, or ''Do you know the words?'' I got extremley blushy and I acted like a stupid little person falling in love with him, While I never ever did.


So the next thing happedn, with my female gym teacher, and i could not join gym anymore because i thought i would make a fool out of myself.

let me mention, i never liked them all, but its all paranoia, what people think of y behaviour.

is this normal

 

[jaim38]

You are not alone. I can act nervous and clumsy around people I'm not attracted to.

 

[this_portrait]

This is how I used to be around boys for the longest time. I'd be afraid to sit too close or interact with them for fear of them thinking I liked them, when in reality I kinda detested them, in the whole childish sort of way that was normal.

 

[rosewood]

seems like you are very afraid of the wrong impressions, and so your body is responding to the stress of that thought. makes sense. i dont like being misunderstood, either.

 

[Sial Axetder]

I'd love to say simply it is the nature of you that is taking hold of you.
Naturally we are drawn toward the opposite sex. Why? Because of reproduction. We are animals and it is in us to reproduce.

Perhaps your sweats toward males, wholly unwanted, was your body's reaction to an attraction it had but you did not.

Err something like that I think.