Urge to cling to others

[3enigma26]

I have this urge:

I want to drop to my knees and just grab the nearest person and never let them go and leach off of their support and form an intense bond with them... so intense that I might strangle them or something. Then I'll try to do this little "I love you - I hate you" thing that I used to do, but I'll get stuck on them and try to live up to their every expectation while slowly dying on the inside, still feeling safe on the outside.

It just feels like every group, no matter how hard I fight it, I WANT TO PLEASE. I just want to follow and be guided. I know that I shouldn't... but I still have this really strong urge to.

 

[dottie]

i completely relate. i am so clingy and i always hope that it will be reciprocated. but people just find it repellent. i can't blame them.

i am so needy and that is a fire i don't know how to put out.

 

[Scars]

I've built up walls and don't let people in. Its always that fear of rejection that makes me not want to cling to anyone.

I'm the same way... but inside I really am clingy... and back before I was plagued with SA and depression among other things I was openly clingy. I'm not clingy in a "I love you-I hate you" sort of way, I honestly don't understand that. Sometimes it's out of friendship, others it's out of love, or possibly admiration (or envy depending on who you ask).

 

[recluse]

I'm pretty much this way with my parents because i have no one else really. I don't feel i can cope with life without having my parents to help me, which is part of the reason i still live with them.

 

[Hellhound]

I'm like this too, but only with those I trust.

 

[dottie]

I'm pretty much this way with my parents because i have no one else really. I don't feel i can cope with life without having my parents to help me, which is part of the reason i still live with them.

if you were financially stable would this be different?

 

[mysissucks]

Oh I completely relate. I feel almost handicapped. Somehow feeling independent will never happen or a very very long time from now.