I see where you are coming from, I to sometimes wish I could escape my consciousness and rejoice in ignorant bliss. But I have found a way to do exactly that; meditation. Meditation allows me to enter a thoughtless state of utter peace and relaxation. Gone is anxiety and fear, gone is loneliness and despair.
Unfortunately one cannot meditate forever and a complete loss of consciousness can only be achieved through death (IMO). I to have troubles facing my problems and indulge in needless escapism instead of doing something constructive. But I think all that is needed to overcome this obstacle is a good push in the right direction. Being thrown into a situation where I am forced to face my fears. I have been been scratching that wall for years and I know that barrier is though to break, but I am starting to see through.
It might sound clichè, but life is a struggle, and even more so for those that suffer from a mental or physical handicap. Not everyone is dealt the same cards, but we all have to play. Having a bad hand means that we only have to learn to master the game and raise the stakes. It might take some time, not all succeed, but unless you try you never will win that pot.
Originally Posted by Lowlight
The undulating mass that is society and it's hierarchies are not meant for the likes of us. To “exist” as they (the unaware or uncaring) would have us do is insulting to your consciousness, which you will learn is the only self you have.
I understand your resentment, but to compartmentalize everyone else is a bit condescending and ignorant. It is easy to point fingers, and yes, those without SA will never truly understand what it is like to suffer from that condition. But we will never know what it is like to walk in the shoes of another. We are all unique individuals. We all have or fears, hopes and dreams.
Escaping from the conscious world might make a good release once in a while, but you will never know what beauty consciousness brings unless you allow yourself to truly explore it.