Okay, I just joined here, but there are a disturbingly high number of similarities between me and the other people on here (at least as far as the categories are concerned), so I want to explain something that happened to me once.
Perhaps it goes without saying that I have never had any friends, only lots of acquaintances. I had this one acquaintance in high school that I got along with very well. Then right after graduation, I suffered a nervous breakdown because of some unrelated family issues. On a sudden I tried to maintain contact with this acquaintance after we graduated, but because I was in a really terrible state of mind, he resolutely told me off, and we haven't had any substantial contact since.
This was in 2006, so it's now coming up on seven years ago. The problem is I cannot forget about this guy.
It's not an attraction; that much I know. During high school, I misinterpreted my own intentions, thinking it was one because I don't know what friendship is about or what a desire for a friend is like. Then it became one for a while but isn't one now. Throughout all of this I can't move on.
Has anyone had experiences like this: where they cannot let go of someone whose already long gone? I don't mean the bad social disaster; that's a separate issue, and doesn't bother me as such anymore. Just the person involved in it. And why someone with such a distant connection? It's not like a freaking dead relative. Has anyone ever heard of things like this, or experienced it?
Perhaps it goes without saying that I have never had any friends, only lots of acquaintances. I had this one acquaintance in high school that I got along with very well. Then right after graduation, I suffered a nervous breakdown because of some unrelated family issues. On a sudden I tried to maintain contact with this acquaintance after we graduated, but because I was in a really terrible state of mind, he resolutely told me off, and we haven't had any substantial contact since.
This was in 2006, so it's now coming up on seven years ago. The problem is I cannot forget about this guy.
It's not an attraction; that much I know. During high school, I misinterpreted my own intentions, thinking it was one because I don't know what friendship is about or what a desire for a friend is like. Then it became one for a while but isn't one now. Throughout all of this I can't move on.
Has anyone had experiences like this: where they cannot let go of someone whose already long gone? I don't mean the bad social disaster; that's a separate issue, and doesn't bother me as such anymore. Just the person involved in it. And why someone with such a distant connection? It's not like a freaking dead relative. Has anyone ever heard of things like this, or experienced it?