terrified day

[Falkor]

Hey everyone,
I'm terribly socially anxious this week and I have been staying in the bathroom at school for 45 minutes, I am back in class now and I still am dreading it.

Their happy i'm back though. I feel guilty and stupid.

Why does this happen to me.. I want to live...

I have been calling several of people., My therapist, ask her for help how to stop this hyperventilation anxiety panicy thing. And how to stop avoiding my dreams.
I have been calling the dentist for an appointment cuz my wisdom teeth
hurts like hell.
A guy just stood next to me and said hi! and looked at me, i said hi... very quiet and he repeated and said hmmm are you okay? i said hmm i guess. And he asked me for a usb stick but i didnt have it so i couldnt give it to him.
Another guy looked at me and he knows about my disorders and he's constantly observing me.. argh.. i'm so obsessed about people looking at me..
i wish the lights were out and it was all dark here.. then i would be relaxed ..
the break is here soon and i cannot wait...
i have to go to the stores though to buy food and I feeeel terrified.
All the people whilst I can't breathe and feel like fainting.
What should i do.....
Not eat.... like most likely everyday.. And make my eating disorder even worse...
Or go to the damn store and buy some food.... Which i did before...
But I feel awful...
Hearing songs in the mal and have to pass by a l ot of people and walking like running fast and looking scared...
And a girl i know works at the shop and she hates me...
Gosh.. What a mind of mine. I need help......!

 

[Falkor]

Now it's afternoon after the break and I feel good again i'm in class.

I'm feeling calm and happy. My mood has gotten some better so.

Things are going fine again ^_^.

still it was a hard time feeling anxious but i guess i just needed a lot of food...

 

[kihira]

Hi Sassy, I hope you got through your day ok? Maybe the pain from your tooth put your anxiety on edge and triggered bad feelings, its hard to feel calm when something is hurting

 

[Porto]

Good to know you are back on track! Take like a lesson today, Your moods change from anxious to relax and happy....so the heaven always come, keep that in mind! About eating make to do something at home, lots of people do it, no embaressement!

 

[Falkor]

Hi Sassy, I hope you got through your day ok? Maybe the pain from your tooth put your anxiety on edge and triggered bad feelings, its hard to feel calm when something is hurting

Yeah you're right. I'm more vulnerable to things when things are hurting. So I guess that triggered it. I will go to the dentist in the late afternoon... Whooh. Fun xD

 

[Falkor]

Good to know you are back on track! Take like a lesson today, Your moods change from anxious to relax and happy....so the heaven always come, keep that in mind! About eating make to do something at home, lots of people do it, no embaressement!

Thanks Porto!!! Yeah, I always feel like swinging around like a cameleon.. *LOL*

Yeah the heaven is a place on earth... Still the darkness is also. It depends on a lot of factors.

*wisdom teeth irritation and no food in morning problem*

I ate a lot of food in the afternoon and relaxed at the park...

I'm feeling much better ^_^

Yeah I love cookin', you just brought me a nice idea to do this week.
I will cook some nice meal

 

[Nanita]

Yeah I love cookin', you just brought me a nice idea to do this week.
I will cook some nice meal

About food; when I was in school and when I had a job, I would usually prepare some food in the evening at home, to take with me the next morning. Like a pasta salat or hummus salad with bread.. and put it in a closed plastic box or something. Inexpensive and easy!!

 

[Section_31]

Awww Saskia! thats a rough day!

*BIG HUGS TO YOU!!!*

I know when im in physical pain, my anxiety is much higher.

I hope the next days are easier on you.

 

[Joan6466]

Gosh, I really appreciate those bottom-line comments on the importance of food and the effects of pain on mood. I want to add on, now do a scientific review of that day to be better prepared the next time. You say to yourself, "O.K., what will I do differently the next time"? For example, next time I will be prepared to throw a question back, so the spotlight doesn't stay on me, I will say,"Hey-how's it going? What are you up to these days?" Throwing a question back gets the spotlight off you, and gives you time to breathe. In this review, it's also a good time to not only practice outloud those words (most of the time our conversations are only in our head, and we get no practice)- but also to practice a healthy cognition, or way or thinking. For example, "I have faith in myself. Every person has doubts about themselves. That perfect looking person has tragedies and worries."
This process won't automatically bring down that high anxiety, but practicing it imprints it on the brain, and sometime, when you least expect it- it will kick in!
You're doing great!

 

[Falkor]

Awww Saskia! thats a rough day!

*BIG HUGS TO YOU!!!*

I know when im in physical pain, my anxiety is much higher.

I hope the next days are easier on you.

Hi Pal.

THANKSSSS <3

Yeah let's hope so. I heard Canada is very hot these days, ain't it? (Oh well at some regions, not all... of course) Enjoy

 

[bitingthepea]

I used to have panic attacks quite regualry
Nearly had one ealrier the palpitations started BUT i found how to control it. Deep breathing!
and make it slow
dont let things get to you so much, i noits easier said than done tho but take care xx