sooo depressed..

Falkor

Falkor

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Ok.. so i did read about the appartment i may be living in.. you have to shut down the computer at 22:00.. I told my mom inmediately I'm not gonna do it.
She said like What's the problem?! She acted like i'm such a computer freak.
But I just really can't live like that. So now my mom is mad, I'm sad!!
My computer is my wisdom. And I'm not gonna shut it down so early.
I just feel frustrated because my mom thinks i'm not responsible enough to live in an appartment for older people, I need to go to the teen appartment and I'm not gonna do that because I just want to live my own rules, sorry may sound selfish but I'm just pissed off. She thinks I can't do that because of my probs. I hate it.. I feel like a worse person because my parents threat me like I'm not mature enough, while I help cleaning, I cook for them, I get my brother from school, I help my bro, but because I don't go to school they think I'm less responsible in life. They once said ''If you don't go to school, you will never decide things''. for example when I go to bed, what time I have to sleep.. i'm 18.. I want to be threatened like a woman.. Not like a little kid. I feel like I can't handle the world, I'm fighting against suicidal thoughts.. Because I just feel that I destroy my life.. I have self desctructive feelings about myself.. and I can't get out of it anymore. :(
 
Dr. Doom

Dr. Doom

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That does suck. I cant stand people dictating my computer time. This apartment was sort of a place for people with physcological problems right? I mean if it does help with your problems then maybe it is worth it to give up those late hours on the internet.
 
Falkor

Falkor

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Thanks for ur answers. I'm feeling better now. Just shopped, and had a good time. My parents adviced me to ''ask the people there if I can get more hours at internet'' telling them how I feel about it. They understand me more now, but they said, ''What do you prefer, still being at home and being socially anxious and not getting help and computer all day long, or computer less and have a social life, you won't even think about the computer, but we do understand making the difference, so you can try to talk to them about it''.
I don't live there yet, so I just want to ask them about it. I really hope they agree..

Btw Lionheart, I love the buddha quote you posted, thanks.
 
MsBuzzkillington

MsBuzzkillington

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Maybe the lack of internet time will be a good thing.

I'll say try it. It seems crazy and hard right now, but eventually, you will be used to it. I think rules and schedules can be healthy.

You will have freed up time to do more. Reading, writing, writing songs, playing games... I am not sure. But I don't think the fact that you have to turn off the internet early should stop you from taking an opportunity to better yourself.

You can do it. Change is hard, but then you won't even realize that you miss going online after 22:00.

Forgot to add, a lot of people use the internet as a crutch. So, taking that crutch away can only help the progress.
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Buzzkillington has a point. I mean I'm still a pretty big computer/internet addict, but I've gotten better since I've gotten rid of accounts (Like Facebook, for example :p ) and just pretty much forced myself to do other things. Now, I feel like I have more free time to do stuff, I don't feel the need to be on here all the time.
 
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