Change is possible, but change with this illness is very hard. I've taken some huge steps towards changing, despite the fear I feel inside. The victories I have over anxiety tatse sweeter for the battles I have faced to succeed. I can count the days I've really lived and there have been many over the last two years. I feel uncertain about my future, but I am thankful for the great days I have lived. I am trying to change, but the anxiety is still with me. There have been blessed moments lately where I have come to believe anxiety need not be a life sentence.