Single Mom loneliness

[Wipeout]

I have been a almost divorced then widowed single mom for 6 years now and the loneliness physically hurts. Let alone the depression of being unemployed for over 2 years, about to loose everything, back surgery that didn't work 4 years ago that gives me constant pain now and to top it off I just found out that my mysterious rash I have had for a while has been caused by my depression medication. I don't know how much more I can take. People say "you have you kids" well that doesn't help me at night when I cry myself to sleep. My kids are the only reason I don't take a handful of pills right now. It's horrible to feel this way and I have moments of ok. I have to fake it for the kids. But I just want to die. But it must be fast...no slow death like I watched my dad die of cancer last year! What do I do?

 

[Dinosaur]

Sorry to hear that wipeout I really cant tell you what to do but to try and stay strong.
I know what its like to watch ppl close to you die of cancer,its not very nice.
You've made the right move by coming on here as there are a ton of very caring beautiful ppl on here to talk to and that always help
Stay strong and i really hope things turn around for you

 

[coyote]

Hi and welcome to the forum!

 

[dottie]

i'm sorry, wipeout. sounds like you are enduring some heavy stuff. were there any things you enjoyed doing for kicks before your depression?

 

[Section_31]

Hi wipeout,

Wow, your pain screams out at me through my screen. Im sorry your feeling as you are, and i can empathize....you have your kids yes but thats not the company emotionally that you need.. Im sorry.

*hug*

Welcome to SPW.

 

[Wipeout]

I've had depression since 16 and I'm over 40 now. No don't really remember any fun times. But thank you

 

[Wipeout]

I am happy that I found this place. I haven't ever joined a something like this and thank you for all replys. I don't know why but it helps to know there are others out there and we are not alone. Even though it feels that way.

 

[JuiceB]

Wipeout I'm sorry that you're feeling so badly. Hopefully things will turn around for you.

Also let me point out that it takes a strong will for a mom to be able to care for her kids while dealing with all those other terrible issues. Keep strong.

 

[Shenmue]

Hi Wipeout

I have been suffering from depression for about, well I forget how long it's been, but it seems like a long time now. And I know only too well how it can distort your view on life. It can literally zap all of your optimism and make you see the world in a negative way.

I hope you can try and find some time for yourself. Even if that means just going out and having a coffee with a friend. There's nothing wrong with putting yourself first once in awhile.

 

[Valhalla]

Hello and welcome. You have my sympathies.