SOCIAL PHOBIA
For almost my whole life now I have suffered from Social Phobia.
I'm now 19yrs of age and haven't had a bf since age 8 back in Primary School.
I fancied a few guys back in high school & I usually just tried to show-off a bit with me mates when they were near buy, just to try and get myself noticed... nothing happend though.
When I left high school and started working, I assumed things would change for me, but they didn't. Then one day, after about a 1 1/2 years working, this new guy started (Best lookin' guy I've eva seen... no kiddin') yet out of every member of staff I was the only one he seemed to notice. He even joined me for lunch.
It was short lived though. I just couldn't understand what he saw in me & I couldn't grasp the reason for why he'd decided to join me for lunch and not someone else.
I pushed him away, by just generally freezin up when he came over, I just couldn't get me words out when he spoke to be.
I've neva in all my life felt so strongly about a guy. I know he's the one, but how the heck do I make amends. I chat to him occassionally and sometimes even see him at break, but yet he never seems to be confortable aroud me now. He keeps giving me mixed signals. One minute I think he fancies me, the next I don't.