Does anyone else here experience separation anxiety?
My girlfriend and I split up two days ago and I've been living an absolute nightmare since. My body hurts in ways I didn't know it could. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I feel like I'm going to be sick all the time, and I can't ever envision pleasant companionship again for my future. All the daily routines we had (which helped me enormously with my anxiety) will be gone. Granted, we were toxic together and didn't really work at all, but that knowledge still doesn't take away the pain I'm feeling. What I know and what I feel are at war with each other.
I guess we lived in our own bubble, just us against the world, even though we argued often. Now that that's gone, I don't have anything left. I always said I didn't really need friends, and that's true - but only because I always put all my eggs into my relationship basket. So whenever I go through a break-up, it's like my world literally ends. I have no friends whatsoever.
The thing is, I'm bad in relationships because the aforementioned separation anxiety kills everything. I obsess over what my partner is doing, and I can't let go or be apart from them. I've tried to cover it in the past as best I could, realizing that it comes off as needy and suffocating, but it was always lurking in the back of my mind. So then when my worst fear comes true and it all goes to sh!t (like now) I find myself totally unable to cope.
I've had to temporarily leave my apartment and stay with my dad and gran, just to have some sort of familiarity around me. They're full of suggestions revolving around getting outside more and being proactive with life, which is the complete opposite of what you want to hear when going through this. I just want to curl up and do nothing.
I feel like the loneliness will eat me alive if I go back to my flat. I don't know how I'll cope with it being so empty there with just me by myself. I can't move on or be mature about this for some reason. I don't often post for help here, but this time I really do need it. I don't know what to do.
My girlfriend and I split up two days ago and I've been living an absolute nightmare since. My body hurts in ways I didn't know it could. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I feel like I'm going to be sick all the time, and I can't ever envision pleasant companionship again for my future. All the daily routines we had (which helped me enormously with my anxiety) will be gone. Granted, we were toxic together and didn't really work at all, but that knowledge still doesn't take away the pain I'm feeling. What I know and what I feel are at war with each other.
I guess we lived in our own bubble, just us against the world, even though we argued often. Now that that's gone, I don't have anything left. I always said I didn't really need friends, and that's true - but only because I always put all my eggs into my relationship basket. So whenever I go through a break-up, it's like my world literally ends. I have no friends whatsoever.
The thing is, I'm bad in relationships because the aforementioned separation anxiety kills everything. I obsess over what my partner is doing, and I can't let go or be apart from them. I've tried to cover it in the past as best I could, realizing that it comes off as needy and suffocating, but it was always lurking in the back of my mind. So then when my worst fear comes true and it all goes to sh!t (like now) I find myself totally unable to cope.
I've had to temporarily leave my apartment and stay with my dad and gran, just to have some sort of familiarity around me. They're full of suggestions revolving around getting outside more and being proactive with life, which is the complete opposite of what you want to hear when going through this. I just want to curl up and do nothing.
I feel like the loneliness will eat me alive if I go back to my flat. I don't know how I'll cope with it being so empty there with just me by myself. I can't move on or be mature about this for some reason. I don't often post for help here, but this time I really do need it. I don't know what to do.
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