sense of being disliked. by the world.

[dottie]

i always have this sense that i am disliked by people. everywhere. everyone. it's this everpresent feeling that people are rolling their eyes at me and scoffing behind my back. even if they seem to like me i'm sure that they say bad things about me behind my back. it's like a 24-7 delusion. it is an irrational paranoia and it's debilitating. when you believe no one likes you it leaves you with little interest in human interaction and a bitter resentment towards the general population. why bother when i could hide out in the comforts of my room? i shut it out.

as usual, i realize i am delusional but i don't know how to stop it.

 

[nephatitus]

i get that feeling all the time like im watched 24/7

feels like the whole world is trying to kill me like im some goddam anti christ

but it wont win

 

[powerfulthoughts]

We know it's irrational. I have feelings similar to what you say, only I can't exactly put my finger on exactly what's happening. I feel sort of tied up around people, like some "force" (metaphorically of course ) is holding me down. I have all the right thoughts circulating in my head, but the body doesn't seem to respond. It's at a much deeper level than just surface thoughts.

Yes, it's paranoia, and insecurity, and low self-esteem, and lack of respect for oneself and one's abilities. I wish I could go through some sort of 3 month bootcamp and have all these values "drilled" into me haha. I really need something strong to overcome my insufficiencies .

I have gotten better in some ways though. A lot of the intense anxiety is gone - but now the remnants are just as bad - because I still am bound by my insecurities. I still can't open my mouth and talk in a socially outgoing way. I seem to only be able to talk about specific things related to the job I am doing, like when I at work I can only talk about job related things... in an almost mechanical way. No emotion, no personality. Something inside of me is scared to show myself... I'm hiding and I don't even want to.

 

[dottie]

I have gotten better in some ways though. A lot of the intense anxiety is gone - but now the remnants are just as bad - because I still am bound by my insecurities. I still can't open my mouth and talk in a socially outgoing way. I seem to only be able to talk about specific things related to the job I am doing, like when I at work I can only talk about job related things... in an almost mechanical way. No emotion, no personality. Something inside of me is scared to show myself... I'm hiding and I don't even want to.

i relate definitely. i can control my anxiety so it doesn't reach the point of an anxiety attack (it almost does, but i manage to dismantle it in time) but i still have debilitating anxiety.

i know just what you mean when you say you show no emotion, no personality. i do it, too. i supress any personality so that i am just a generic person. no room for personality. they don't deserve it. they may (probably will) hurt it. i'm afraid i have withdrawn throughout my life so much that i don't know how to have personality anymore. it's become permanent.

 

[Errordotocx]

We know it's irrational. I have feelings similar to what you say, only I can't exactly put my finger on exactly what's happening. I feel sort of tied up around people, like some "force" (metaphorically of course ) is holding me down. I have all the right thoughts circulating in my head, but the body doesn't seem to respond. It's at a much deeper level than just surface thoughts.

I believe I can relate quite a bit to this message. I can socially interact under certain circumstances, but being socially outgoing I seem to not be able to do. I don't exactly feel like the world hates me, instead I only wish that these nomal people understood what it was like for people that have extreme shyness and or SAD. I often feel left alone because people just don't seem to understand.

 

[DontSleepOnMe]

This feeling you are talking about like everyone hates you is awful. Iam transisting slowly to the other side where I think people like me, it's really happening, and it's wonderful, waking up so refreshed, lookin out the window seeing people and feeling like you belong, going down stairs and just feeling good, running up back on those stairs in a positive energy

Hang in there!

 

[thor01]

Yeah i understand and feel similar to all

 

[Celephaïs]

I can relate a bit. While I can see the irrationality of it, past experiences do not help. I've come int contact with strangers before in public settings that were down right hostile to me for no reason.

 

[purplesocial]

I can relate a bit. While I can see the irrationality of it, past experiences do not help. I've come int contact with strangers before in public settings that were down right hostile to me for no reason.

To put another spin on this:

Sometimes you should just trust your gut instincts. Sadly, the world is full of people who mean no good I have a really high bullshit detector, and can often tell when people are being insincere, or don't have good intentions in mind. It's only a problem if you start to become paranoid about it and it affects your social interaction in a significant way.

 

[SickJoke]

as usual, i realize i am delusional but i don't know how to stop it.

Logically you realize the thoughts are delusional, but they're being driven by deep, emotional beliefs, so logic isn't enough. In order to counter your belief "The world dislikes me" you need to plant the seed of a new belief into your brain: "I am likable." Keeping that new belief in mind as often as you can, look for evidence to support it. For example, be friendly to someone. Regardless their reaction, you were friendly, and that's evidence to support your new belief that "I am likable."

The more evidence you have to support a belief, the stronger it becomes. When your belief that "I am likable" becomes stronger than your belief that "The world dislikes me" you'll see the yourself and the world differently. Stay strong!

 

[Reddle]

sickjoke, what should you do when just the idea of needing a "positive mental seed" makes you feel like people will hate you even more?

 

[dottie]

Logically you realize the thoughts are delusional, but they're being driven by deep, emotional beliefs, so logic isn't enough. In order to counter your belief "The world dislikes me" you need to plant the seed of a new belief into your brain: "I am likable." Keeping that new belief in mind as often as you can, look for evidence to support it. For example, be friendly to someone. Regardless their reaction, you were friendly, and that's evidence to support your new belief that "I am likable."

The more evidence you have to support a belief, the stronger it becomes. When your belief that "I am likable" becomes stronger than your belief that "The world dislikes me" you'll see the yourself and the world differently. Stay strong!

thanks i will try to remember and apply this

 

[SickJoke]

sickjoke, what should you do when just the idea of needing a "positive mental seed" makes you feel like people will hate you even more?

First of all, you don't need to tell anyone. Secondly, positive people are more likable. Finally, the whole reason for creating this new belief is to counter delusional thoughts similar to the one you posted: "people will hate me even more."

thanks i will try to remember and apply this

Thanks for giving it a shot. I hope you'll make it work for you, no one deserves to have those debilitating thoughts.