self concious about body movements

[Falkor]

Do you also find yourself self concious about the way your body moves, your face expresses and the emotion you feel?

When I jog in a park, i find myself bizarre walking with my legs, i think people see it. the insecurity flying through my veins.

And when I dance, I would dance like a weird awkward clumsy nerd, like I am so hell of shame.

When I need to cook and people look at it, i smile oddly and ashamed and feel paranoid over every thing i am doing.

When I write, i find my pencil shaking when someone looks at it and i make a big blurry **** on the paper.

When I sing, i find my mouth acting strange and my eyes tremble and i feel like i'm dying.

When I'm in the train, and i read a text on my phone, I feel my emotions running and my facial expression gets so tense, that I think everybody can feel my emotions and i go high.

When I read a newspaper and i see something awkward, i get so nervous around the people in the waiting line that i feel explosive embarrasment.

All emotions i hide.. and paranoia, when i am afraid of being jealous at given presents, i expres jealuos while im happy for someone, when i am not in love with a friend i still act like im overly clumsy even with people i find so not hot.

what the hell?

 

[LoyalXenite]

I have the same issue, im self conscious about everything i do in public, even my breathing, sometimes i even have to turn off my ipod so i can check on my breathing.
I dont understand why im so paranoid and i like to think that i dont give a damn what anyone else thinks, but still i get extremely self conscious.

 

[Falkor]

I have the same issue, im self conscious about everything i do in public, even my breathing, sometimes i even have to turn off my ipod so i can check on my breathing.
I dont understand why im so paranoid and i like to think that i dont give a damn what anyone else thinks, but still i get extremely self conscious.

Yeahh the breathing thing...I can totally understand that, i have the same thing, that's why i wear one earphone instead of two >_< it's so ridiculous. How OCD?

Yeah self conciousness, it's f'ded

 

[Saraswati]

I am also experiencing this... :/
When I was younger I didn't even want to move my arms, legs, head.... anything really. I would stay still for the whole time and move when absolutely necessary. I thought that I would bother someone and they would say behind my back "Why in the hell did she move her arm? That was such a weird thing to do, she's weird." or something like that.
This has gotten better but still I catch myself getting really worked up over the way I move, walk and especially dance. When walking for example I feel like my legs are not my own and that people will think that I don't know how to walk.
And the breathing thing part.... I also do that from time to time. Mostly if my surroundings are really quiet - I don't want to breath too loudly.
Also.... I listen to the sounds of people outside my office and when someone goes by I would get really nervous and start to adjust my behaviour, movements....

It's really hard to think about EVERYTHING you do and how others will see that ><

 

[jaim38]

I can definitely relate to everything you guys are saying. I become hyper aware in public. My body movements become very unnatural. I move like a robot in slow motion. People must have noticed. I cannot "be myself" at all.

On the other hand, I have a friend who doesn't care what people think about her. She can eat oily chicken drumsticks in public using her bare hands, and even share with her parents (even when other people are calling her disgusting). She can be described as a "smooth operator" who can fit in different social situations. By the way, I'm not sure if star signs have anything to do with this. She's a Leo, and Leos are often described as popular and socially adept.

 

[Saraswati]

I have a few friends that are like that too
When I'm with the people I know very well I can get really comfortable with doing some things I would never think of doing when by myself. I like to think that we are in our own bubble and nobody else can see us.
It can become a problem if they are drawing a high amount of attention from our surroundings though (like talking too loudly)... My body does not approve of that and I start to feel like all the eyes are on me.

People I have been observing have led me to believe that there is some truth in it. You do have to know the whole birth chart to make it more precise.
But even if you take that as a starting point, you still have to count in the influence of one's surroundings and the way that they were raised. A lot of factors can influence your "predisposition".

 

[Awkwardandshy]

I feel like that aswell!!
One thing about it that I absolutely hate is my facial expression while im outside my home!!
My jaw, gets super tense, and my lips are sort of.. gmm, they are not relaxed anyways. My eyebrows area is also tensed! :sad: it is super annoying.
While im out, my posture changes and Im always self conscious about:
My breath, how I walk (often very stiff) and I never know what to do with my arms, it feels weird to let them out of my pocket.

Another thing, is that I CAN NOT look at my own shadow on the ground, because then I see my self, how "nervous" I am. I also feel self conscious while standing on the ground, I often swing the whole body back and forth and my head leans slightly forward.


One thing that helps me when im out of my home, is to bring a piece of bread, or any other food with me, so I have something to do!

Another thing is to , think right. Your brain listens to whatever you say to it. So try to think, "Im not self conscious, im the outgoing one in my group, I love being outside, Nobody should decide over my life, Im my own character, I love myself, other people wont decide my future"

 

[xDreamseller]

I get very conscious of my legs/feet when I'm walking. I go over ever step in my mind, every little detail.

Did my foot land too angled inwards?
Was that step too short?
Am I not lifting my leg high enough?
Is my speed fluctuating every few steps?

The list goes on...

I also spend a lot of time focusing on my posture.
Is my back straight?
Am I hunched forward?
Is my head too far forward?
Do I look nervous staring at the ground this long?
Should I put my hands in my pockets or by my side?

I even watch other people around me this closely when I'm walking, to see if they do the same things as me.

It's like I am stuck on fully-aware mode and can't switch into the autopilot everyone else seems to be on :s
(I make comparisons between myself and robotics/machinery all the time too)

 

[LoyalXenite]

Yeahh the breathing thing...I can totally understand that, i have the same thing, that's why i wear one earphone instead of two >_< it's so ridiculous. How OCD?

Yeah self conciousness, it's f'ded

I often find myself with one earphone in so i can monitor my breathing, glad im not the only one

 

[xDreamseller]

If I notice myself breathing odd, I take out my earphones and pretend to clean them or something, when really listening to myself breathe :s

 

[rosewood]

when i was 4 i would hide from my dad in tall grass and listen to him scream my name over and over getting angrier and angrier. finally he would leave and i would feel so safe in my tall grass nest, across the street from my house.

as an adult i would not know what was wrong but to make myself feel better i would go into the hide/ freeze mode and sit still in my apt not moving.

this was probably in response to those same thoughts, i look weird to others, why are they looking at me, etc, etc.

if they cant hear me in my apt or see me, then there is nothing to notice. invisible. in the hallways at the apt complex anyone walking can hear people inside with the door closed quite clearly. there is no privacy at all. horrible.

but of course not much gets done that way...

 

[Solitudes_Grace]

I am especially self-conscious of my facial expressions when around other people. I am also pretty self-conscious of my arm motions when walking, which is why I almost always walk with my hands in my pockets.