scared that I'm not scared

[lovely222]

Does anyone else have this problem.?

I'm now fully in control of my disorder and my life is back to normailty yes I do have those bad days once every so often.

I'm back to work socialising life is gr8

But I find it hard that I don't panic get Nervous. Suffer anxiety attacks. I sometimes. Find that I'm almost willing my self to panic.

I think because of Three years as a emotional wreck became normailty being 'normal' per say Is alien to me.

I know I'm. One of. The. Lucky ones who haas come. Through the other side but there's a fear that I don't have these issues to deal with anymore

 

[planemo]

Yes i kinda know how you feel. I'm far from being normal, but my levels of panic and despair have subsided. Sometimes I go looking for something to feel unhappy about, just because being content is alien to me. I really feel kinda lost without panic. It used to take up so much mental energy, that now i have no idea what to do with my thoughts. So mentally things are a lot better and calmer, so i do feel kinda strange, but i would rather feel a little empty than go through the hell of panic again.

I think it's more a sense of loss you're feeling. The fear that you lost something that was always there. Even though panic and anxiety is a major form of disruption in our lives, it can also be something we depend on. It becomes a constant, and even though it can be harmful, we accept it as part of ourselves. Now that you have made progress it's as if a part of you has left, and even though it's better for you, we still feel an emptiness due to it.

 

[Kiwong]

I've built something great in my life, and now I have that, I get scared I will lose it.

 

[Falkor]

I've built something great in my life, and now I have that, I get scared I will lose it.

The same here. I am afraid of getting into the same situation of having so many fears and being stuck in time. Now I feel much better and I hope I can keep this way up. I still deal with SA though, I can't handle a social situation pretty good still, but I've made a lot of improvisations. And I definitely don't wanna lose it!