SA and Suicide

[poemfromtheheart]

Jw if anybody with SA has ever thought of suicide? Because I think that's what makes me think of it. I'll be dreading something like having to give a big speech and I'll just think "If I killed myself first, I wouldn't have to worry about it." And I'll start seriously thinking about it too. This has been since I was a little kid. When I was little I'd be so scared to have to grow up and get a job and pay for a house and everything that I'd say "I'll just kill myself before I have to do that." And be completely serious. I was like four or five. I also think about it when I'm mad and think "I'll show them. I'll kill myself to make them feel guilty." Help me, please.

 

[A86]

id be lying if i said it never crossed my mind. however i would never do it.
we only live once and i am keen to to get the most out of it. sure you can think of the bad things, but theres just soooo much to life, why not take the time to attempt to experiance it all rather than prematurely ending it. death is not something that can be taken back at a later date.

 

[BlueDays]

A lot of the time people consider suicide when they feel that is the only way to escape or end the stress/mental pain they are experiencing at that moment. I've been there many times myself.
However the older I get the more I realize that there are solutions you can try before suicide. Even if they seem bad or not the right thing to do, remind yourself they are better then actually killing yourself.
I have learnt after each suicidal feeling I have had throughout my life that nothing lasts forever. What ever is causing your stress/mental pain right now, it will not last forever. Keep reminding yourself of this.

 

[deleted #89]

How would you feel without those suicidal thoughts? Describe it.....what would you do, where would you go, what career would you want ?

 

[poemfromtheheart]

How would you feel without those suicidal thoughts? Describe it.....what would you do, where would you go, what career would you want ?

I'd want to be a famous author. But right now I'm too scared I'd actually succeed and have to give interviews and everything. I'd never know what to say. :s

 

[megalon]

I used to think like that too sometimes, if I had access to guns like I do today I probably wouldn't have made it through 2006, but something happened recently that changed my mind. Someone who I used to see everyday at work, who was younger than me, was killed in a horrible accident. I guess I thought us young people were invincible and it made me realize how fragile and precious life is. I could never destroy something like that on a whim. There's always hope for tomorrow.

 

[Apotheosis]

Yes - SA and depression (temporary or otherwise) are entertwined such that, for many, it's difficult to tell which is source and which is symptom. But yes, big events that **** with your anxiety can definitely trigger those kinds of thoughts.

So as long as you're dealing with SA, you'll likely have to deal with that baggage as well.

I won't shove my personal philosophies down your throat, but any time you start going down those lines of thought, try thinking of something beautiful - whatever is beautiful to you, whether it be a place, a person, a poem, or perhaps just an idea.

Becoming nothing would take away the malices of the world, yes, but it would also take away all its beauties. So what is greater - your love or your fear?

(Chocolate, tea, and a hot bath can work wonders as well)

 

[poemfromtheheart]

Yes - SA and depression (temporary or otherwise) are entertwined such that, for many, it's difficult to tell which is source and which is symptom. But yes, big events that **** with your anxiety can definitely trigger those kinds of thoughts.

So as long as you're dealing with SA, you'll likely have to deal with that baggage as well.

I won't shove my personal philosophies down your throat, but any time you start going down those lines of thought, try thinking of something beautiful - whatever is beautiful to you, whether it be a place, a person, a poem, or perhaps just an idea.

Becoming nothing would take away the malices of the world, yes, but it would also take away all its beauties. So what is greater - your love or your fear?

(Chocolate, tea, and a hot bath can work wonders as well)

^you seriously just made me smile and helped me so much, as did everyone who answered me. thank you so much.

 

[nafadda]

speaking as someome who has had a few friends commit suicide throughout the years ,i have found out that you just never know who will and who won't do it.some people that seem perfectly fine kill themself sometimes.

my first friend was when i was 22.he was very outgoing and happy.we all went out one night.everything seemed fine,he was laughing and having fun and he went home and sometime during the night put a shotgun in his mouth.he was 24.who knew he had these feelings???

next one was a female friend of mine who was a veternarian,GREAT job,,but she always had substance abuse problems,in and out of re hab and she jsut decided at 36 to take an overdose of drugs and drink..very sad but it happens,no one can stop it if thats what someone really wants to do.

and just last year one of my sweet dear friends who i had known since he was 16 jumped off a water tower to his death.he wanted to do that.he was 28..sad again,but if a person REALLy wants to do this NOTHING can stop them.

non of them ever spoke of suicide but obviosly they thought about it.

I feel like if a person has that much inner pain in them to go to that extreem may be sad,VERY sad,BUT it is also their option to chose to end their life .this may sound harsh,but in fact it isn't.it is reality and since i was not in any of those peoples head,all i can hope for is that they have now come to find peace,what else can you do.this post in NO way is condoning suicide,it's just saying you never know who will or who won't do it .

 

[Charmed]

I'll be dreading something like having to give a big speech and I'll just think "If I killed myself first, I wouldn't have to worry about it."

Usually when something I don't want to deal with arrives, I will think about killing myself. But I'd never go through with it .

 

[kc1980]

I'd want to be a famous author. But right now I'm too scared I'd actually succeed and have to give interviews and everything. I'd never know what to say. :s

Some famous authors hardly ever give interviews or appear in public. It even makes them look more mysterious and profound to the public

 

[Apotheosis]

Some famous authors hardly ever give interviews or appear in public. It even makes them look more mysterious and profound to the public

Not an author, but this is one of my favorite things about Keanu Reeves - he's like me, but famous.

 

[kc1980]

Jw if anybody with SA has ever thought of suicide? Because I think that's what makes me think of it. I'll be dreading something like having to give a big speech and I'll just think "If I killed myself first, I wouldn't have to worry about it." And I'll start seriously thinking about it too. This has been since I was a little kid. When I was little I'd be so scared to have to grow up and get a job and pay for a house and everything that I'd say "I'll just kill myself before I have to do that." And be completely serious. I was like four or five. I also think about it when I'm mad and think "I'll show them. I'll kill myself to make them feel guilty." Help me, please.

Social anxiety can cause a person to feel completely miserable at times. But you should always know that you being alive and who you are is more important than what some other people might be thinking of you. Even if you completely mess up a speech, first of all there are many people who are scared to give talks and are not good at it, but that shouldn't completely affect who you are as a person. It's easier said than done, and might take a long time before you start changing that way of thinking, but I found that a good way to reduce the stress and fear is to consider that you're a valuable and good person no matter how you perform. A large part of what social anxiety is, is that you simply attach far too much importance to some other people's possibly negative judgements. Once you stop thinking like that you won't feel so bad anymore that you have to consider bad thoughts.

 

[Section_31]

I thought about it a few times yrs ago, after my jr high incident. I was in a very dark place mentally then.

The only thing that stopped me was i was too scared to go through with it.

And today im so happy i didnt.

 

[poemfromtheheart]

I thought about it a few times yrs ago, after my jr high incident. I was in a very dark place mentally then.

The only thing that stopped me was i was too scared to go through with it.

And today im so happy i didnt.

I think I'd be too scared as well. :/

 

[lauralaurent]

I've thought about it often, but I could never do it. I couldn't do that to my family. But if I didn't have any loved ones perhaps I would think differently, but probably not...

 

[9407]

I thought about it often....even tried to do it 3 times. Last week I felt like going down to the subway and jumping in front of a train because I thought my life was pointless. What stops me is thinking about what my family would think and having some hope that my life isn't pointless. I also think about how good I have it. I live in a 1st world country, I'm not blind, deaf, in a wheelchair, etc.

 

[Clown]

actually the suicide attempt is higher then they expected for social anxiety disorder
about 23% and they expect even higher

 

[Tigers are my favorite]

Suicide is something I've thought about many times. This last year has been the deepest and darkest year of my life and I've thought about it many times. But honestly, the only thing that scares me more than the loneliness of life is death. Its painful to imagine eternal darkness and non-existence and the transition from being conscious to dead.

Even though I feel sad many days and my psychological condition has gotten worse over many years, I still hold onto this last bit of hope that things are going to get better and that one day, I'll be successful and sociable and meet people who actually understand ME. And I have a dream that when I get to that point I'll make it my mission to help educate society about SA and reach out to people who I think have it just like me.

 

[recluse]

The anxiety i experience before anything social/job interviews is so great i do indeed think ''if i kill myself i won't have to deal with it'', also the loneliness makes me think of suicide a lot.