Bronson99
Well-known member
This is for those who took no action and no risk in life and realized, for instance at my age of 32, if you don't start living now, you might never live at all. If you're not one of those people, you may not understand; nonetheless if you have some optimism for me, I'd like to hear it.
I think I've developed something of a crisis, realizing I've never had the slightest bit of romantic interaction with the opposite sex, for example. I mean, I'm 32. When I think about this--and think about how it's ridiculous to be so inexperienced at my age--I just get this "insane" brute force feeling of "I MUST fix this NOW NOW NOW! I can't put it off anymore."
Then I get to thinking, well how can it be done, with my social anxiety, profoundly low confidence, awkwardness, and of course a "strange history of getting nothing done at all," how can I just jump in and fix this issue? The answer my mind gives me is that it cannot be done, it's not for me, and I need to go back in the corner and retreat to fantasy-land, because I just can't handle it. But then when I do that, I'm still getting older.
This is not just about the problem of meeting the opposite sex, but for many issues. But that thorny issue does stick out, I'm so terribly lonely and just now, finally, it's really hurting me. It's actually becoming a physical pain. I'm getting depressed again and things that usually interest me just don't have the same kick.
But I'm also overemotional in general, much of it irrational. In my other thread here, the person who understood the issue best directed me to a site where you're supposed to "pay for the cure." Not for me, I like altruism better. I also hear meditation may help, but what kind of meditation?
Anyway, this forum is terribly inactive, or people are afraid to post. If you think you understand this problem I'm going through now, then give me a PM. Somewhere, some place has to hear me out or care; is a life lived without any risk and without any accomplishments just that rare, that people don't know how to respond?
I think I've developed something of a crisis, realizing I've never had the slightest bit of romantic interaction with the opposite sex, for example. I mean, I'm 32. When I think about this--and think about how it's ridiculous to be so inexperienced at my age--I just get this "insane" brute force feeling of "I MUST fix this NOW NOW NOW! I can't put it off anymore."
Then I get to thinking, well how can it be done, with my social anxiety, profoundly low confidence, awkwardness, and of course a "strange history of getting nothing done at all," how can I just jump in and fix this issue? The answer my mind gives me is that it cannot be done, it's not for me, and I need to go back in the corner and retreat to fantasy-land, because I just can't handle it. But then when I do that, I'm still getting older.
This is not just about the problem of meeting the opposite sex, but for many issues. But that thorny issue does stick out, I'm so terribly lonely and just now, finally, it's really hurting me. It's actually becoming a physical pain. I'm getting depressed again and things that usually interest me just don't have the same kick.
But I'm also overemotional in general, much of it irrational. In my other thread here, the person who understood the issue best directed me to a site where you're supposed to "pay for the cure." Not for me, I like altruism better. I also hear meditation may help, but what kind of meditation?
Anyway, this forum is terribly inactive, or people are afraid to post. If you think you understand this problem I'm going through now, then give me a PM. Somewhere, some place has to hear me out or care; is a life lived without any risk and without any accomplishments just that rare, that people don't know how to respond?