whatkatiedid
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I'm so tired of being like this. I don't even recognise myself. I used to be so caring. I'm so tired, I just want to be alive. Really alive. I want to be awake. I'm so tired of feeling dead, like there's something missing that's making it impossible for me to feel. I need to be charged. I need to attach a wire to my spine, I need someone to turn the voltage up really high so that I can wake up.
Nobody understands me. I don't understand myself, how could anyone else possibly understand what's going on in my mind?
I don't like people. I don't trust anyone. We're all lying, manipulating, cheating, selfish, scum of the earth. Everything we do is to benefit ourselves.
I know I'll regret writing this. I don't even have anything to complain about. Today was okay. I laughed plenty, I went to college and did some work for once, I had a good talk with my Mother, but yet I still bitch on...
What's wrong with me?
I've been seeing a Doctor. He's doing **** all to help with my sleeping problems, he's just going to up the dosage on my meds...
I really doubt that I will. Everyone leaves in the end anyway.
He says it's not the meds that are making me tired. I feel like a ****ing rat being tested on.
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