Yeah!
This is very regular for me.
I try to hold back from hurting my machines. Head slap is commonplace.
In others' spastic driving style around roundabouts, I generally use indicators left / right in a mixture of expressing 'don't know... uhh...' I'd slap the wheel to use the horn, but I never have, because the sound is empty and meaningless. I like detail. I beep people in the street that I know, so they wave back, or when arriving or leaving someone's driveway, I beep as a greeting, and glad not to include any anger.
As I write, my first event of the day was an immediate cell fone call, with no ID. I know exactly what to expect. I often fly into a fury, and glad I never chuck the fone anywhere. The female voice asked what my name was and if I was jobsearching. I attempted to match her pronouncement to be friendly. After a string of "hello? hello? hello? hello? hello? hello? "I said "yeah. huh. uh. yep. Indeed. Yes. Yes." In response, I get an expressive way of her letting the handpiece fall, clattering onto the base, hearing 'clatter, clatter, click, click, bang.. whistle...'
Every phone call gets me into a miserable self-pitying whirl
Tantrum is at the root of my being.
I've learned that I've never been able to please anyone, from birth.
I think a proper, hanging fullsize punchbag would be my best vent. Such a shame that I have no chance to use one, and it'd be a public one in a gym
Just sometimes I scream at people and it goes badly. I can't avoid it happening. I use metaphors to explain scenarios to simple people and make them understand. This is eg. in a street and if a tree has fallen down - don't let it block your path. Walk around it or jump over.
Metaphors are the worst thing I do, to simplify complex things for simple people. This generates a lot of problems. It's just in my head that things are complex. I can't translate this to others. They see that any problem can be fixed by smiling and laughing. Everyone sees the world as perfect & so wonderful.
