procrastination, homework & my benzo friend

[cowboyup]

I'm taking a social psychology class this semester and it's online.

I have homework that I NEED to do this weekend. Problem is that this class is tailored to 'get to know the real you' kind of thing. There is no textbook, but the professor posts readings online from a book called "Peeling the Onion" and we are to answer questions such as who are you, getting to know the real you, inside and out, and how others have influenced you or your decisions.

I am SO horrible at knowing "ME" the real me...who I am, etc. and I am really procrastinating this one BIG TIME. I need to log into the class, post whatever needs to be done, and be done with it but I am staring at a valium right now, thinking to myself, "I need to take this pill so I can calm down, do my homework, relax and concentrate on what needs to be done"

That's bad. Bad thinking on my part that I feel the need to rely on a little blue pill (haha not viagra) to get me through school-homework.

*and in case you're wondering, no my judgement is not impaired when I only take 1/2 - at least I can calm down enough to do the work*

I feel like crying I feel so overwhelmed. All this just because I know what everyone else likes, etc. but when it comes to me, forget about it. Maybe I should just answer the questions through my sister's eyes...I know all about her likes and dislikes. <--- that makes no sense either -that would be fraudulent on my part.

ugh.
....onto words with friends...then homework.
yeah, sounds like a plan

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

There's nothing to be ashamed about for relying on medication. It shows that you're intelligent and responsible. You do a great job here releasing your emotions. I think this might be a good opportunity for you to get in touch with yourself. Take your pill and go all out!

 

[selon]

Maybe you can ask people who know you well how they see you? Granted, we do see ourselves in a different way than other people but it still might be a source of inspiration

 

[cowboyup]

Maybe you can ask people who know you well how they see you? Granted, we do see ourselves in a different way than other people but it still might be a source of inspiration

that's a good idea; hadn't thought of that. thanks

 

[cowboyup]

There's nothing to be ashamed about for relying on medication. It shows that you're intelligent and responsible. You do a great job here releasing your emotions. I think this might be a good opportunity for you to get in touch with yourself. Take your pill and go all out!

yeah, that's one reason why I chose the class...thinking it might be good for me - plus the professor is a licensed therapist, lol

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

plus the professor is a licensed therapist, lol

Nice. Free therapy! LOL ::

 

[LastCaress]

I took it online before too. Got the highest grade a 97% . All the teacher wants to know is if you understand the material. The fact that it is online you can even exaggerate a little bit if you have to.