PHas Anyone felt like this wih Mental Illness?

[scottishpacfan]

When you are feeling good and you suffer from mental illness do you ever feel bad because you are feeling good at that moment? i do at times and it can be very silly and distressing .

When im feeling happy i can be like"Oh since im happy people will be like"thought you were mentally ill, you dont look mentally Ill to me" "

My Friend equated it to people who have a disabled badge but can walk fine(have some other kind of disabilty and drive but they look fine.

Does anyone uderstand what i mean here??

 

[Feathers]

LOL yeah I understand...

Also people with other 'invisible illnesses' can feel like that.. Like multiple sclerosis or any iffy or rare diseases..

I can also be very sociable at times and 'up' and smiling and so some people just don't get it how bad I could feel the next day or next week..

At times I have felt bad for feeling good because so many bad things were happening in the world..

And now it seems my Dad thinks sometimes I shouldn't feel good cause I don't have a job or grandkids for him.. So he can go into 'bully mode' at times, for me or sis.. (or even mom, sometimes..)

Maybe you also don't have a full-blown depression, it could be something like bipolar or such, where going yo-yo is 'normal'? (Maybe read upon it and see if it could be the case?)

 

[scottishpacfan]

LOL yeah I understand...

Also people with other 'invisible illnesses' can feel like that.. Like multiple sclerosis or any iffy or rare diseases..

I can also be very sociable at times and 'up' and smiling and so some people just don't get it how bad I could feel the next day or next week..

At times I have felt bad for feeling good because so many bad things were happening in the world..

And now it seems my Dad thinks sometimes I shouldn't feel good cause I don't have a job or grandkids for him.. So he can go into 'bully mode' at times, for me or sis.. (or even mom, sometimes..)

Maybe you also don't have a full-blown depression, it could be something like bipolar or such, where going yo-yo is 'normal'? (Maybe read upon it and see if it could be the case?)

THANK YOU, SOMEONE ELSE WHO UNDERSTANDS!!! i have read upon it and when reading up on Manic Depression/Bipolar years ago, it was like looking in the mirror, i was like"That describes me to a T" that's me, that what iam and who iam

People being Ignorant of Mental Illness Dismay me::

 

[scottishpacfan]

Of course I know what your talking about, hahaha I have the whole manic and depression bipolar type things. I swing 2 times a year I am manic one half of the year and depressed the other half.

Sadly i can be a lot lot lot more than that::

 

[scottishpacfan]

Does anyone feel like shouting at people who are ignorant of mental health issues "WILL YOU'S GO AND DO RESEARCH ON MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES AND EDUCATE YOURSELF AND MAKE AN EFFORT TO UNDERSTAND?

I Do......a lot feel like that

 

[Feathers]

Sadly i can be a lot lot lot more than that::

Do you cycle more rapidly then? Like several times in a day or so?
I can be up for a few days, then down for a few days or a week or more..
Or sometimes it's within the same day..
Somewhat depending on what I eat or the monthly hormonal cycle.. It can be horrible to only be 'up' 2 weeks in a month.. (or less lol) Or I can write really enthusiastic stuff here and people are all excited, and a few hours later I'm like, 'did I write this?' lol

I'm not really bipolar, as in spending madly (the most went for Amazon) or being totally reckless/promiscuous or such.. I may have some delusions of grandeur sometimes but then who doesn't?
So I call myself bipolar-ish.. A friend of mine was soo happy when she discovered she was 'manic depressive' lol.. (She was also only -ish, and now has a job, steady guy for years, says he 'stabilized' her a bit..)

I usually don't explain it to people, I try to only interact with them when I'm 'up' or force myself to at least be sort-of 'together'.. It can annoy some people who wonder where I disappeared or something..

I wish my family understood but they're half-suspect of all my other medical conditions already, and for them something 'tangible' like 'I have a cold' is best understood.. So partly I hope the tests would find something physical, partly I fear they would or wouldn't..

They don't really understand about mood swings.. And may also have'em themselves.. My Dad has had mood swings since I was young, he was never treated though and would probably never admit it.. I think he's 'on the border' too.. Not really fully diagnosable, but it can be very annoying.. (He can get hyper etc..) Or maybe it's 'just' ADD/ADHD, those two can be very similar.. Grandma says it'll only get worse as he gets old, she thinks it's onset of Alzheimer's or something... (?)
Look at your relatives, these things are sometimes genetic..

Just you telling things may not be enough, if they read it in the paper or in the church or on TV, or all of those and more, then maybe they'll understand or agree it's a possibility... It can be exasperating sometimes.. Especially if then (after a few years!) they may start lecturing you about it - about something you've been trying to educate them about all along! /sigh/

So, yeah, I can relate to feeling exasperated.. in many ways.. not just with parents, with society also.. Many people today are on 'happy pills' or painkillers, even if they look like 'ordinary citizens', go to jobs, have kids, etc... It's big pharma making big money, sigh.. When it's the lifestyles and the jobs and systems that would need to be fixed..

 

[awkwardamanda]

I'm pretty sure no one has a clue anything might be wrong with me. All they see is that I'm shy, lazy, and I have a temper. They don't have any idea that it's really beyond mere shyness. No one sees me depressed either. I hide it well for the most part. It's just that the sadness and anger build up for a while and I'll just snap sometimes, and often over something minor. They don't see what's really bothering me. I think my family just thinks I'm lazy but the truth is I'm unmotivated because I'm depressed. I have some hoarding issues but that probably just appears as me being too lazy to clean. I likely have OCD or OCPD but hell if I'm gonna admit that to anyone. I have my share of mood swings but I doubt I'm bipolar. I've felt depressed my whole life although I didn't really figure that out until last year. I go through phases. Sometimes I'll just have a rough day, or a few days. Then I might be in a better mood for a few days. Or sometimes I'm fine for a while and then I'll just feel depressed for no reason, and then I'll wait it out and I'll feel better. But I don't think I've ever been manic. If I'm not feeling miserable, then I'm usually just in a decent mood, feeling fine, but not real happy and ambitious. I just find my moods can change frequently. I don't get long periods of being up or down. I think randomly feeling sad is just part of depression though. But if I were to try and explain to someone that there's something mentally not right with me, I don't think they would believe me. I keep a lot to myself, and I'm pretty sure most of the time I appear normal.

 

[awkwardamanda]

Most of the older generations don't even recognize mental illness other than seriously mentally ill persons.

I agree, although I think this goes for anyone, not just older generations. People can tell if you're severely mentally ill, but they might still just label you as crazy and be insensitive about it. But if your issues are mild it's more subtle and people don't even notice. Unless your problems are extreme and obvious, they just think you're normal.

 

[scottishpacfan]

Do you cycle more rapidly then? Like several times in a day or so?
I can be up for a few days, then down for a few days or a week or more..
Or sometimes it's within the same day..
Somewhat depending on what I eat or the monthly hormonal cycle.. It can be horrible to only be 'up' 2 weeks in a month.. (or less lol) Or I can write really enthusiastic stuff here and people are all excited, and a few hours later I'm like, 'did I write this?' lol

I'm not really bipolar, as in spending madly (the most went for Amazon) or being totally reckless/promiscuous or such.. I may have some delusions of grandeur sometimes but then who doesn't?
So I call myself bipolar-ish.. A friend of mine was soo happy when she discovered she was 'manic depressive' lol.. (She was also only -ish, and now has a job, steady guy for years, says he 'stabilized' her a bit..)

I usually don't explain it to people, I try to only interact with them when I'm 'up' or force myself to at least be sort-of 'together'.. It can annoy some people who wonder where I disappeared or something..

I wish my family understood but they're half-suspect of all my other medical conditions already, and for them something 'tangible' like 'I have a cold' is best understood.. So partly I hope the tests would find something physical, partly I fear they would or wouldn't..

They don't really understand about mood swings.. And may also have'em themselves.. My Dad has had mood swings since I was young, he was never treated though and would probably never admit it.. I think he's 'on the border' too.. Not really fully diagnosable, but it can be very annoying.. (He can get hyper etc..) Or maybe it's 'just' ADD/ADHD, those two can be very similar.. Grandma says it'll only get worse as he gets old, she thinks it's onset of Alzheimer's or something... (?)
Look at your relatives, these things are sometimes genetic..

Just you telling things may not be enough, if they read it in the paper or in the church or on TV, or all of those and more, then maybe they'll understand or agree it's a possibility... It can be exasperating sometimes.. Especially if then (after a few years!) they may start lecturing you about it - about something you've been trying to educate them about all along! /sigh/

So, yeah, I can relate to feeling exasperated.. in many ways.. not just with parents, with society also.. Many people today are on 'happy pills' or painkillers, even if they look like 'ordinary citizens', go to jobs, have kids, etc... It's big pharma making big money, sigh.. When it's the lifestyles and the jobs and systems that would need to be fixed..

Not EVERY single day but i can get "up and down" a couple/few times in a day and i even get paranoid now and again that people will think/say"are you putting that on?" as sadly there as very cruel and ignorant people out there::::::