chemboy
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I have suffered from panick attacks since college. Today was especially bad. I went to the movies by myself and during it started to have uncontrollable thoughts about being a bad person. I had my typical heart throbbing symptoms and extreame discomfort, but it was a new experience in the way I was thinking. Like I was a bad person and that I will never get "in controll" again. I have never once thought of bringing harm on myself or others, but there was this fear that sometime it might happen. It was like a voice that was telling me that everything I have accomplished in life is null and void and that I will never gain controll. There was an overwhelming fear of ending up in a nut house. I took Valium that was prescribed to me and it calmed me down a bit, but I am really scared of returning back to that way of thinking.
I take zoloft for anxiety but I will admit that there are multiple days that I forget to take it. I take valium when I absolutely cant do without it, but I have a fear that it just masks my symptoms and that it will eventually not help.
This is a note of desperation. I should not feel this way. I have a masters degree in chemistry and had a great childhood. I have a great relationship with my parents but can't bother them with what I go through because my mom would worry all the time. I live over 10 hours from my home town, but I have met some people here.
I am looking for balance in my life in the form of someone else to share my life with. The problem is that I live alone and most of my time meeting girls is in the bar setting and it hasn't worked out for me lately. I miss home, but I am not sure moving back will solve my problems. I finally came to realize I need help and need to talk to someone to put in place control mechanisms. The problem is that I called a psychiatrist and they never got back to me. I need to find someone to talk to, to get to the route of what is bothering me because I don't think I can continue to have these attacks.
I am asking for advice on who to go to psychiatrist, counseler, etc. I am sorry that this is jumbled, but I am kind of having an attack right now. I really am a good person, but I feel so alone.
Any suggestions or tips would be appreciated.
Thanks Much!
I take zoloft for anxiety but I will admit that there are multiple days that I forget to take it. I take valium when I absolutely cant do without it, but I have a fear that it just masks my symptoms and that it will eventually not help.
This is a note of desperation. I should not feel this way. I have a masters degree in chemistry and had a great childhood. I have a great relationship with my parents but can't bother them with what I go through because my mom would worry all the time. I live over 10 hours from my home town, but I have met some people here.
I am looking for balance in my life in the form of someone else to share my life with. The problem is that I live alone and most of my time meeting girls is in the bar setting and it hasn't worked out for me lately. I miss home, but I am not sure moving back will solve my problems. I finally came to realize I need help and need to talk to someone to put in place control mechanisms. The problem is that I called a psychiatrist and they never got back to me. I need to find someone to talk to, to get to the route of what is bothering me because I don't think I can continue to have these attacks.
I am asking for advice on who to go to psychiatrist, counseler, etc. I am sorry that this is jumbled, but I am kind of having an attack right now. I really am a good person, but I feel so alone.
Any suggestions or tips would be appreciated.
Thanks Much!