Just to let everyone know i'm homebound , i have BDD and social phobia . Sometime there are things that you cannot avoid doing , and those are usually very hard for me , renewing my Health insurance card was on my "to do" list since June . I would just stare at the paper on my desk knowing that i would have to do it before a certain date, but couldn't find the courage to step outside. So i woke up this morning feeling quite energized and better than usual , and decided to just assemble the papers i needed and just do it . I was so nervous , i almost gave up twice , feeling nauseated , dizzy , weak , right before crossing the door , but knew this had to be done , and knew that i would feel so relieved after , and so i did it . It wasn't bad at all . The constant thoughts of people staring at me was not pleasant , but i managed to just accept and let go , and instead focus on relaxing my tense muscles . Now back home i feel proud of myself , but i feel really tired , this simple task took all my energy away . I'm free , for now , haha.