lonely_drummer
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Well I got the all dreaded letter today informing me that I'm kicked out of school. I guess my fear of collaborating information and conversing with lab partners has finally caught up with me. I began to fear going to classes in general, I was afraid to be seen, I just wanted to be invisible. I threw myself into a drama filled residence on the other side of the country, far from my close friends. I was sick and tired of being here, I was sick and tired of having so much anxiety all the time. There were too many bad memories that haunted me almost daily. I thought that making a huge change would force me to be adaptable, maybe force myself to break out of my socially awkward habits, however it just made things worse. Now that Im back home its been nice to be around my close friends, who are my bandmates. They're good people, we play awesome music which is when my anxiety is usually at a minimum. When Im not in school during the summers we play all the time and can make enough money to earn a living. I guess I just gotta keep my mind on other things and give music a try, follow another dream for a while but everything would be best if I wasn't so odd. Sorry for the wasted time you've probably spent reading my mind. To those who have made it this far, I hope you have a pleasant evening