one my most pronounced "social phobia" caracteristic is that I don't say "hi" to a lot of people I meet in everyday life.
at college, I had some previous bad experiences in the first year, sometimes when I said "hi" but I got no response. so I become an ******* myself, I say hi only to people I have direct contact.
with some neighbours I had some "conflicts" so I stopped saying good morning/afternoon/evening when I meet them.
the most shameful situation is with one of my sister's colleagues from a previous job she had. there was this one time when she like didn't response to my "hi" and after that I developed a really strange feeling. First I didn't say hi when I meet her, then I started to avoid her because I'm really embarassed by this irational situation.[she must think I'm crazy, I hope she's not afraid that I want to kill her or something LOL].
It started like a desire for revenge: I really felt bad in my life when I tried to be a nice person, and istead of respect from others, I received...****
And from one to another I got in this thriller scenario that is really exhausting sometimes.
I promise that at a future job, or why not, city where I will live, I'll say hi to people, although some of them don't deserve it. It would be a lot stressless for me.
Thanks for reading, it's really a release for me, that I shared this...I'm going to some sunday afternoon sleep...see u 2nite
at college, I had some previous bad experiences in the first year, sometimes when I said "hi" but I got no response. so I become an ******* myself, I say hi only to people I have direct contact.
with some neighbours I had some "conflicts" so I stopped saying good morning/afternoon/evening when I meet them.
the most shameful situation is with one of my sister's colleagues from a previous job she had. there was this one time when she like didn't response to my "hi" and after that I developed a really strange feeling. First I didn't say hi when I meet her, then I started to avoid her because I'm really embarassed by this irational situation.[she must think I'm crazy, I hope she's not afraid that I want to kill her or something LOL].
It started like a desire for revenge: I really felt bad in my life when I tried to be a nice person, and istead of respect from others, I received...****
And from one to another I got in this thriller scenario that is really exhausting sometimes.
I promise that at a future job, or why not, city where I will live, I'll say hi to people, although some of them don't deserve it. It would be a lot stressless for me.
Thanks for reading, it's really a release for me, that I shared this...I'm going to some sunday afternoon sleep...see u 2nite