Livingwithoutlivin
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Ok, this definitely was never an issue back at around when I was 15. I never experienced this irrational fear, and I'm sure at that age, I did not have it at all. Of course, when somebody would embarrass your or would harrass you until I'd break out a fret, to make stop hurting me, then I would of course feel anxious, justly so.
Ok, now that I think of it, I was pretty outgoing and talkative, and sometimes I would not shut my mouth back when I was 15. Now I think I'm starting to remember when I got this. I was had gone to the orientation to start the independant study homeschool program. At one of the orientation meetings, each one of us potential new students had to be descriptive and tell a life experience to everybody else. Well, I talked about a spooky thing that happened when me and my cousin were alone in the has one time. I was thinking, everybody is gonna love hearing this spooky little story. But the teacher was looking at me, after I said it, like I'm some kind of kook or like it's ackward that I mentioned a spooky story. This made me feel like maybe he thought I was uncool or something. I don't know what happened, but from that point on I started being self concious about myself. I think that from there it slowly escalated into a bigger problem. The more I analyze and try to justify other people treating me wrongly, the more I think that there was a good reason for them to treat me so. Because I've always assumed that others are right and I am wrong about myself. We need to act as if we were already normal. Our anxioius selves, are us being self concious of what others think of us, we are being the people who forgot what we were like when we didn't even doubt ourselves or think of this.
If we have a healthy balance of problems, enemies, and we make friends int he process, and we have a lot on our plates, them when we have one problem, it diminishes when another one pops up. Our problems are relative. The more we escape from the rest of society, the worse our problems get. Cause then we start analyzing what it would be like to talk to another human being, and what if they notice the corners of my downturned lips, or weird thoughts like that that we never really thought of before. The trick is to make our world bigger.
Ok, now that I think of it, I was pretty outgoing and talkative, and sometimes I would not shut my mouth back when I was 15. Now I think I'm starting to remember when I got this. I was had gone to the orientation to start the independant study homeschool program. At one of the orientation meetings, each one of us potential new students had to be descriptive and tell a life experience to everybody else. Well, I talked about a spooky thing that happened when me and my cousin were alone in the has one time. I was thinking, everybody is gonna love hearing this spooky little story. But the teacher was looking at me, after I said it, like I'm some kind of kook or like it's ackward that I mentioned a spooky story. This made me feel like maybe he thought I was uncool or something. I don't know what happened, but from that point on I started being self concious about myself. I think that from there it slowly escalated into a bigger problem. The more I analyze and try to justify other people treating me wrongly, the more I think that there was a good reason for them to treat me so. Because I've always assumed that others are right and I am wrong about myself. We need to act as if we were already normal. Our anxioius selves, are us being self concious of what others think of us, we are being the people who forgot what we were like when we didn't even doubt ourselves or think of this.
If we have a healthy balance of problems, enemies, and we make friends int he process, and we have a lot on our plates, them when we have one problem, it diminishes when another one pops up. Our problems are relative. The more we escape from the rest of society, the worse our problems get. Cause then we start analyzing what it would be like to talk to another human being, and what if they notice the corners of my downturned lips, or weird thoughts like that that we never really thought of before. The trick is to make our world bigger.
