Depressed4life
Banned
She's going to talk to my doctor because she can't see me so depressed. According to her i am too young to be so sad and just so negative and that i am always saying no to everything. I don't fix myself and i really could give a fuck about my hygiene because i don't go out of my house at all. I am not saying that i stink or anything lol but her friend is coming over and she wants me to shower and to put some clothes on but i don't see the point of putting clothes on. I am still on my pijamas(not sure about spelling) and with a jacket that my bf gave me. So yesterday there was a party and my friends were here so my sister went to the party and my sister was like lets go to the hair salon i'll pay for it but i am like no thanks i don't feel like going. Everybody was begging me to go and i just don't feel like it because i feel like shyt. Its just when i fix myself i never feel pretty enough, i always feel like my sister who is outgoing,skinny, has a good ass job out shines me all the time. She changes when people are around and treats me so fucking poorly. I am 17 and she's 20, sometimes i wish i wasn't born because she's the perfect one. SHe's always saying oh you are not normal is all in your mind...